I've been so conflicted for the past 3 months.
I want to transition so badly, but my job doesn't really have laws
since it's a self owned company.
I'm not out to my friends because I'm scared of losing more people that
I came out to.....
I feel like dysphoria is conflicting with my relationship because my
partner is constantly picking me up.
I feel conflicted because I like my body....I'm even....sexually attracted to it....
but it's just not mine.....so I feel like I'm just being greedy with my wants that it's killing me
I just don't know....
I'm just scared because I've been having suicidal thoughts lately......I don't want to act on them
but it's been years since those thoughts crept up on me......
I feel like I'm alone when it comes to being a FTM
Let alone, a gay,femme FTM.

Hi

I'm not FTM, but you're definitely not alone! There are lots of people who through the same struggles, whether MTF or FTM, find them, ask questions, offer advice, hang out and just have fun with people here most are really nice.

I wish I could change your situation, but all I can say is that it will get better if you fight for it! You don't have to transition to live a happy life, but if you do transition, you don't have to become miserable due to it. Message me any time

best wishes, xxxx

Thank you. That meant alot to me. I'm trying keep my head afloat and just hearing that make the water go down
just a lil bit more faster. ^^