Hi all just thought I would introduce myself I've been reading a lot on Susan's and thought its time I told a little of my story.
I've always known that I am trans when I was 8 years old I used to play with all the neighbourhood girls and some of them are still key best friends, but as I grew up parental pressure forced me to stop and I became the guy I need to be, I used to even then spend all my pocket money on makeup and costume jewellery, I even got caught a couple of times and had everything thrown away.. I sometime wonder why my parents didn't take me to a shrink then... Some day I'll ask them.
The internet came to india around the time I moved off to college and that was a revelation for me I now know I was not alone and on my own accord I went and saw a shrink.. Biggest mistake I ever made he put me on T and told me that I would grow out of it.. I hated my life and the things that happened I hated the beard that grew thick, the body hair and everything associated with the results of the T that I took for 6 months. So I stopped seeing the jerk and got E and T blockers from non prescribed routs. I lived the effects but a lot of the damage had been done and I was very depressed. Life went on and I started working and almost completely immersed myself in work
Then I hit 30 and realisation dawned on me, the only thing I ever really wanted was to be a girl and I had let that go to the back burner, so if started again I got rid of the things that bothered me the most, facial and full body laser took off most of my body hair, I almost never have to shave anymore, maybe once a month just to get rid of those small fine hairs that crop up..
3 days ago I took the next big step orchidectomy. I flew into Thailand and with letters of referral from my psychiatrist back home, dr Pat of the tokai clinic Thailand did what I have been dreaming of for 25+ years.
Next step for me is ffs then voice surgery at yeson Korea and after that move jobs and live full time.
