Hello, my given name is Elizabeth, but I really like the name Eliott. I guess I'm gender confused at the moment, but I feel like a guy. Sure, I like bright colors, skinny jeans, wearing a tiny bit of make up, and dating guys. But that doesn't mean I can't still feel like a dude, right? All of my idols are guys, I've often looked at a guy and have said "one day I'm gonna be like him" only to have my friends look at me and tell me I'm a chick. I'm always wearing shirts from the guy section, stealing my brothers' shirts and jackets, and running around the house in boxers. I got my hair cut in a guy style, it's the best feeling in the world when I get mistaken as a guy from behind. People will probably tell me it's just a phase. Yet I realized I wanted to be a guy 5yrs ago, and it's stuck. I talking to myself in a deeper guy voice, and shopping for panties and bras is horrible, I hate my tits. I really want a binder, but I can't tell my mom. I've been trying to hint at me really being a guy for years now, only for her to say things like "No parent wants their child to cross dress" and "No girl should ever wear guy clothes" or even "Promise me you will never be butch, you can be lesbian, just not butch". Those comments really hurt me. I'm not sure what to do, but I really feel like a guy, I always kinda have. I'm sure my older brother wouldn't really care, he jokes about me being his brother, and I joke about him being my sister because he takes forever getting ready in the morning and his hair is longer than mine. I'm sure my friends will support me, they support me in almost everything. Honestly I think I just need to talk to someone about this that understands though.
