I'm stuck in a pretty deep rut, financially and emotionally. I'm barely keeping up with rent on my new apartment, let alone my other bills which are quickly going way behind. My job has me going to the point that I've forgotten even what it's like to do things. I never get to spend time with my daughter, I'm growing way out of shape to the point I have what in my opinion a disgusting beer gut and I'm disgusted with myself.

I'm trapped right now. I have to have income, but I have to leave this job I'm quickly going down a very bad path. Problem there though is I'm literally going to have to quit this job and risk no income for too long and wind up homeless and jobless. That is not an option, but to get time off from work is also near impossible let alone to go job hunting for something else.

I've lost almost all desire to do anything. The activities I used to live for now seem like a chore and my only comfort is restless nights and early mornings. I work with a bunch of egotistical homophobes too whic doesn't help.

My only occasional respite is getting to be myself, dressing up, talking girl stuff with my sister and friends. Not like I get many opportunities for that though.

I always never advocate quitting a job that is bring roof over your head and food on the table just to try and find another.

Always find a new then quit. I know it is harder to do but is done all the time by many.

Times are tough in the job market all around the world so sometimes we have to not let our egos or prides stand in the way.

Quote from: mrs izzy on August 19, 2014, 12:10:06 AM
I always never advocate quitting a job that is bring roof over your head and food on the table just to try and find another.

Always find a new then quit. I know it is harder to do but is done all the time by many.

Times are tough in the job market all around the world so sometimes we have to not let our egos or prides stand in the way.

You're not quite grasping the gravity of the difficulty i have just to get a few hours off for a doctor appointment. I work 12-16hrs per day Monday through Saturday on top of I'm still enlisted in the Army National Guard and I do get called in periodically. In the oil patch there is no time off except what you get and your job is always on the line to be replaced if you're not there.

That being said I've been struggling to find a new job for a year now and haven't been able to even schedule an appointment for an interview because I miss calls while at work operating equipment.

This is why I say I'm trapped.