what if i told you i was actually happy, would you believe me?

I would say that is a good thing and now your need to add more of them each day.

I would say that you deserve happiness.  Happiness is all around us - just waiting to be touched, embraced and celebrated.

Aisla

Of course I would believe you.
Congratulations on being happy hope many more happy moments come your way soon

I'm happy that your happy. You need to continue being happy and whatever you need to do to maintain your happiness -within reason that is.

Ali

I don't see why not. That's great.

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on August 14, 2014, 05:13:18 PM
what if i told you i was actually happy, would you believe me?

Maybe... I think we all go through cycles of happiness and sadness on one level or another.
I'd say sure, if you're learning to catch that wave of happiness and riding it for all it's worth.
The more you recognize the ways that work for you to stay happy, the better.
I think you've found that being happy is something worth working towards and you've been doing just that, it would seem.
Sure I believe you are happy, why not? You've been making some very positive comments, moving in that direction.
I think you can see the reaction we have for your happiness, also a very positive thing.
Ativan

There are really only three big reasons why I spend time on Susan's and they are linked.
1. To learn from this community how to become someone entirely new.
2. To grow in community with people I love and admire.
3.  To be helpful and of service to this community that has both saved my life and given it added meaning.

As I moved through this list, I became more real, braver, and in touch with myself.  The system output is a powerful sense of self and a sense of joy.  I think that is happiness.  I have seen you taking steps along that path, and it makes me rejoice.

Yes, I believe you are finding happiness.   I hope it fills you with purpose and love.

Peace,

Julie

I too have noticed a difference in your posts Brianna and definitely believe you are finally happy. I'm not hearing all the doom and gloom of your early posts. Hey, don't feel bad, I myself was in a very bad place when I first joined this community. I have some lovely ladies and a few gents (y'all know who you are) to thank for bringing me out of that place of darkness and for my life back full of happiness as it is right now. So I know how uplifting this community is, and a feeling of belonging is.

Congratulations on your happiness! May it last forever!

Ali

happy!!

of course i'd believe that. happiness is an emotion that either is or is not. if you're feeling it, then you're happy.
i hope it lasts, and won't be broken by harder times or sad things that happen.

i'm going to start writing poems again. i found one that i forgot i even wrote. runny really because it was sitting write in my face the whole time

I started writing poems again aswell since I started hormones 4 months ago...last time before that was about 9 years ago...

They're not great and often they show the darker side of my emotions but the fact I'm writing again is an indication things are going in the right direction!

PS: Most of them are on here, Writing section. Dont expect much but enjoy

i hate the earth. i belong in the sky but yet i lost my wings 

Probably just misplaced them while you were busy hating the Earth.

true, or maybe i forgot how to fly because i've been chained to the ground for so long. *sigh* it cant be helped i guess. i guess hate is a strong word but i shouldnt be on the ground so its really understandable to a certain point. how i wish i wasnt born an earth creature. i unfortunately got stuck with an earth sign

Once you learn to release yourself from hate you'll be able to find your wings again, and you can take flight to the sky where you do belong

Anything is possible if you try. Stop whining and start planning.




Leaving tomorrow for a 50 mile kayak run down a river that I've never been on and have no idea what's there.
That's the point of it. If I don't do it, I'll never know. If I don't try, I'll never know. It needs to be done.

'In view on my impending death, I have no time for crappy thoughts'
Ativan

*sigh* i'm not going to say anything anymore. i'm just going to sleep

There is a lyric by Peter Yarrow that goes something like this.

"If I had wings no one would ask me should I fly,
the bird sings no one asks why,
I can see in myself, wings as I feel them,
if you see something else keep your thoughts to yourself,
I'll fly free then"

I think that your wings are beautiful, use them.

Peace
Julie

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on August 21, 2014, 09:21:47 PM
*sigh* i'm not going to say anything anymore. i'm just going to sleep

May your dreams be the ones that let you fly as you wish to.
May your dreams come true.
There are always ways to make things possible, or to find the possibilities that are there..
There is always a way to move forward, find that next wave of happiness and use it to fly Brianna.
I'd like nothing more than to see you flying overhead, doing barrel rolls just for the simple joy of doing so.
It would not only be your dreams come true, but it would be an inspiration for others to fly with you as well.
Ativan