I'm just so fed up right now. Back to school, college. Fun times. Hearing my female name everywhere is really going to get to me this semester. I know i can usually correct people and just make them change it and junk but at first i chickened out. This time it's because of my being indecisive.
Before, I thought the name 'Noah' was cool, so i kinda played with it and told a few people. Well now I'm kind of settling back where my heart started at the name 'Tyson'. So a few people still call me Noah and I'm a bit grumpy about it, but i don't want the whole "GOD just pick a name!" and eyerolls and... yeah. So I'm just quiet.
Anyway, back to school. We have a counseling center here that's free, which I'd been to but i mentioned 'transgendered' and they went "Uhhhhhhhhhhh....?" And I tried to talk about it and they changed the subject. Not immediately of course but they eventually would just run out of things to say and ask about my school work and my stress. Yay. I've stopped going since that; while keeping my stress, anxiety and depression.
There's also the fun fun fact that on Thursday I get to go to an ultra feminist art opening! yay. - Ok, before i start this rant: I have nothing against people who want true equality, i believe that most feminists do not want -true- equality. That is my issue with them. - So the feminist opening is required (I'm an art major, so...) and I most likely have to go alone (no girlfriend backing me up). Can't bind or pass, so I get to be a 'girl'. And be around so much feminine glory ... and it just makes me want to punch a hole in the wall. My college has this nasty habit of rubbing things into our faces - feminism being the main thing. I know it's a liberal college, but c'mon.
This first week isn't going to be amazing. For those reasons and the fact that i have a lot of supplies to get in a short amount of time, as per usual. Wont be that bad this semester, work wise. Too bad the rest of it will be fun to tackle...
