Quote from: iiMTF on August 26, 2014, 11:16:20 PM
Though one trans girl I know, she not only passes but looks like she was always a girl... She was on blockers since like 11 I think and started HRT at 13

Wow. I wish that I could have done that.

I might still be able to do that, if I can get a gender therapist appointment! <3

Quote from: iiMTF on August 26, 2014, 11:54:52 PM
I realize that but... I have never thought of myself as gay/lesbian. Plus, I am very sure she isn't lesbian either.. The part that worries me is I've never been attracted to a boy and I still am not... I probably sound so stupid right now. Do I??

Just conflicted. It will eventually work itself out though. I do think you may be over thinking it a little too much though when you try to think what other people are thinking. A therapist will really help you through this. They really are valuable in transitioning. I thought being a Paramedic I knew everything there was to know about transition especially HRT, but I have learned a lot and continue to do so each session. 

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on August 27, 2014, 12:03:11 AM
Just conflicted. It will eventually work itself out though. I do think you may be over thinking it a little too much though when you try to think what other people are thinking. A therapist will really help you through this. They really are valuable in transitioning. I thought being a Paramedic I knew everything there was to know about transition especially HRT, but I have learned a lot and continue to do so each session. 

Overthinking things is the only thing I know how to do.

In the games I play, I always make my character a girl (I even did this before I knew what trans even was) and recently a few of my friends have seen it and asked me like, "Dude. Why the heck do you look like a girl."

This puts me in the uncomfortable position of doing something I hate to do: Lie. One of my friends who asked me I just didn't know what to say... I didn't have an answer, I wasn't prepared for the question because somebody who doesn't know me irl had called me "her" and "Lucy" infront of him.

Another one I told him I got hacked.

I've just had a lot of close calls.. And that first one won't stop asking me about it.. Face to face. I do everything I can to get out of the conversation... I just can't answer!!

Quote from: iiMTF on August 26, 2014, 10:42:18 PM
Well suicide applies to everyone, not just me.

I believe the suicide rate of trans is 5x higher than that of those who are not?

I've read that it's closer to 25x
It's around 1.5% for the general population and over 40% for transgender

Quote from: iiMTF on August 26, 2014, 10:13:19 PM
Misato - I did not mean just because of they're title, I meant like if they had some sort of "evidence"

I stand by my answer.

That's bullsh..t. No one can tell you if you're trans or not. That something YOU should know. The professional should only help you with the process you go through( Atleast in germany it's handled that way). I would look for another professional in such a situation.

Quote from: Juliett on August 27, 2014, 04:28:00 AM
I've read that it's closer to 25x
It's around 1.5% for the general population and over 40% for transgender

Oh wow. I think I got the 5x from an old trans support/facts video that someone suggested to me. But... Over 40%?! That's just crazy!!

Sure is.  Lets try to get it down to at least 1% shall we?

If a professional said I wasn't trans I would say he wasn't a proffessional as he thought.

Quote from: Emmaline on August 27, 2014, 08:07:00 AM
Sure is.  Lets try to get it down to at least 1% shall we?

If a professional said I wasn't trans I would say he wasn't a proffessional as he thought.

Exactly

It depends. Would they still write my HRT letter? Probably not, and if not, screw 'em. I'll find someone else to confirm officially what I already know.

(When I first started, I was terrified of exactly this, because I was unsure of *myself.* I'm pretty sure I'm really trans by now, though!)

Quote from: iiMTF on August 27, 2014, 12:17:44 AM
In the games I play, I always make my character a girl (I even did this before I knew what trans even was) and recently a few of my friends have seen it and asked me like, "Dude. Why the heck do you look like a girl."

This puts me in the uncomfortable position of doing something I hate to do: Lie. One of my friends who asked me I just didn't know what to say... I didn't have an answer, I wasn't prepared for the question because somebody who doesn't know me irl had called me "her" and "Lucy" infront of him.

Another one I told him I got hacked.

I've just had a lot of close calls.. And that first one won't stop asking me about it.. Face to face. I do everything I can to get out of the conversation... I just can't answer!!

Back in the day, before I realized I was trans and had no real explanation I told people I preferred to look at girl's butts than guy's butts. True, but only part of the story

I'd be pretty happy, but since it won't make me feel any different, I'd need an explanation. If there is anything that can disguise itself as Gender Dysphoria, I'd want to know.

I would tell them to go to hell because I know myself well enough to even seek out a therapist.

I honestly just look back at my entire life and say ..." You know what, I been dressing and feeling like a girl since I was 5, I'm not crazy, try as I might 25 years later I still feel the same and hate seeing a boy in the mirror."  So I don't need any super smart professional telling me who or how I am or suppose to feel.  I love god with all my heart and he knows it even after I say this. "Not even GOD will tell me that I am not transgender and that I shouldn't transition".  I've been baptized and he knows where my faith and heart lies.  I may not agree to every word the bible says nor should I with everything a "professional" tells me.  I told my therapist, I'm tired of BSing around and want to start HRT, I'm a trans girl, it may be trans but at least I'm a girl".  She said that was exactly what she needed to hear and wrote my letter for HRT.  So to you I say this.  Go with what your gut tells you.  *Carpe Diem*

To "seize the day" and/or a certain moment in time.

To put aside all differences, all fears, all worries, and just go for it.

To make the most out of that part of time.

Carpe Diem more often or you will miss out on life and never truely be happy.