Some time ago, I met a guy who was really nice and and always smiling at me. I didn't even know him, but he told me I had this great personality and he tried to get to know me. I couldn't handle it.

But now it has given me perspective. I kinda stalk him on faceboook and I'm not happy or proud to admit it. But it's just that he gave me some hope that I could be one day loveable despite who I am. It's not even that I am interested in him, but I felt a connection could have formed and it didn't. So now I'm frustrated. Sometimes I just don't believe I am ever gonna be in a romantic relationship, especially cause I am lonely and have so few friends. And I ain't exactly the type of "guy" everybody wants to date, so feminine and feminine looking as well with such a baby voice. As a trans woman, I can only imagine it getting harder. But I don't know. I may be wrong, or I am probably trivializing. I am not even saying trans women aren't loveable, obviously you girls are amazing and all, but i struggle. Because I know how much society sees us in a negative light, and it affects our social bondage greatly and the ability to form genuine connections.

It's not like I try that much anyway. Maybe because deep within I still feel worthless despite the path of self-acceptance I have walked. But it's so difficult.

Thank you for reading.

I so wish I could give you a real hug right now! 

I do know how you feel though. It is hard for us to think anyone would want us, but almost harder to comprehend when someone does show interest. I think unfortunately we are all looking for the why they want to be with us instead of relaxing and discovering the real reason they do. We just have a programmed chip on our shoulders a lot of the time. It is not us per se, but what society as a whole has made us. I have reached the point that I am willing to explore without fear anything that may (not likely though) develop in my life with someone. I just hit the point finally where I have accepted I will always be a woman with a past and nothing I can do will change that. All I can do is try to be the best I can be and hope someone will accept what I have to offer them. You are not worthless at all sweetie and just programmed to have these feelings by society. Don't let them win. We ARE women and we DO matter and have a LOT to offer that special someone. 

Quote from: Auroramarianna on August 26, 2014, 06:45:50 PM
Some time ago, I met a guy who was really nice and and always smiling at me. I didn't even know him, but he told me I had this great personality and he tried to get to know me. I couldn't handle it.

But now it has given me perspective. I kinda stalk him on faceboook and I'm not happy or proud to admit it. But it's just that he gave me some hope that I could be one day loveable despite who I am. It's not even that I am interested in him, but I felt a connection could have formed and it didn't. So now I'm frustrated. Sometimes I just don't believe I am ever gonna be in a romantic relationship, especially cause I am lonely and have so few friends. And I ain't exactly the type of "guy" everybody wants to date, so feminine and feminine looking as well with such a baby voice. As a trans woman, I can only imagine it getting harder. But I don't know. I may be wrong, or I am probably trivializing. I am not even saying trans women aren't loveable, obviously you girls are amazing and all, but i struggle. Because I know how much society sees us in a negative light, and it affects our social bondage greatly and the ability to form genuine connections.

It's not like I try that much anyway. Maybe because deep within I still feel worthless despite the path of self-acceptance I have walked. But it's so difficult.

Thank you for reading.

You should never stop wishful thinking. Faith moves mountains. I never thought I'd have SRS, but I am. I can't offer you a romantic relationship, but I'd be honored to be your friend!

Thank you, Jessica, I totally return your kind hug!

Thank you, Jazz

My "friends" walk over me all the time. I mean, my previous friends. One of them completely ditched me. And I have who only wants to be with me because he loves my house. Everytime he suggests hanging out, it's always at my house. I hope this isn't affecting me, but I honestly think it is. How can you feel worth if you have friends like this? I only have two true friends in my life. And they also have their own groups. If I can't meet people and make friends, much less having romantic interest in someone.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with positive thinking.

Quote from: Jess42 on August 27, 2014, 08:12:08 AM
There is absolutely nothing wrong with positive thinking.

Lol, yeah. I should probably stop making these threads. Do I have some sort of victim complex or something? It's annoying.

The thing is only that I started obssessing with the idea of being in love abnd being loved, when it is probably best to stay realistic and know that I will have to overcame many challenges when it comes to dating, or possibly stay alone for a long time. IDK.

Quote from: Auroramarianna on August 27, 2014, 08:17:29 AM
Lol, yeah. I should probably stop making these threads. Do I have some sort of victim complex or something? It's annoying.

The thing is only that I started obssessing with the idea of being in love abnd being loved, when it is probably best to stay realistic and know that I will have to overcame many challenges when it comes to dating, or possibly stay alone for a long time. IDK.

It's alright. No, you probably don't have a victim complex.

Finding love is probably not a good thing to obsess over. It is something that will come naturally when it comes. You definitely can't force it. If you obsess over it you are gonna' end up overthinking it or having such high standards and expectations that will make it impossible for love to find you. Keep your mind open, keep your heart open, think positive and so on and it should help. We all want Brad Pitt but sometimes your true love may be more like Jim Belushi.

Does that make sense? One thing about it is that it always seems to happen when you least expect it. But you have to keep your mind open and your heart open.

Quote from: Auroramarianna on August 27, 2014, 04:17:50 AM
Thank you, Jessica, I totally return your kind hug!

Thank you, Jazz

My "friends" walk over me all the time. I mean, my previous friends. One of them completely ditched me. And I have who only wants to be with me because he loves my house. Everytime he suggests hanging out, it's always at my house. I hope this isn't affecting me, but I honestly think it is. How can you feel worth if you have friends like this? I only have two true friends in my life. And they also have their own groups. If I can't meet people and make friends, much less having romantic interest in someone.

You deserve better tan that, but before thinking about a romantic relationship, we need to work on our self worth. We do not need bad friends, we deserve better than that. We need to surround ourselves of loving, giving people. I'm using plural, because I have similar problems.

In my experience hope is what pulls us through the dark times. I am at my worst when I loose hope.