Today, I came out of my therapy session at the verge of tears. First, they put me through like 2 hours of different tests. Then my therapist makes me talk non-stop for like an hour. Talking about my past really hurt me. It dug up old, buried wounds

And, at the end of it all, I felt like I was trying really hard to convince my therapist about the true me. I am so true to myself and I know how I feel. I wonder why on earth should I be trying so hard to convince someone else.

Feeling really low and depressed right now ..

Everyone of my sessions with my therapist made me cry.

Bring up the pain makes it less of pain when you talk about it.

I have PTSD that also made tears fall.

I felt if i went to a therapist appointment and did not cry that the therapist was not doing a good job.

Not sure of feeling like you have to prove something, mine was more me working out my issues of why i stuffed them in for so many years and what my future was going to look like going forward.

It was all prep work for my coming of age.

Wish you well, Hugs

If I came out of a therapy session crying, depressed and feeling like I was fighting them instead of sorting out my issues, I would find another therapist immediately, but that's just my opinion.

I'm brand new here, but I've been in therapy for four years plus - not related to TG. I have no huge trauma in my background and I've always thought I had an ideal childhood. Well, that's how messed up I've been. It didn't take long for me to figure out how much I've hidden from myself. And as a result of that therapy, here I am having discovered that I am transgender.
Lots more therapy to come and I'm not sure if I can stick with the same shrink or go to a specialist in TG issues.

What I've been through has been a mixture of tears and joy but I've not faced the challenges of dealing with transition yet, so I can't relate directly to what you've said. I will say though that it is difficult to rifle through your past and try to sort things out.
I WANT to be challenged on all this simply because I HAVE to know but also to be certain and to be able to communicate to others who I really am. I've discovered an incredible amount about me but I need to know just about everything so that I can move ahead with confidence.
My opinion is that if you think your therapist is getting in the way of what you need to be doing, then maybe you should consider finding another one. If, however, you don't want to feel any pressure or pain in the process of moving forward as the person you truly are, you may be being unrealistic. I won't say that with the least bit of certainty because I don't know you. I just know that looking into all the dark corners of your life can be very painful but in the end very rewarding.

I guess I've just spent more words saying basically what mrs izzy has said...

Quote from: ssneha23 on August 28, 2014, 08:55:36 AM
Today, I came out of my therapy session at the verge of tears. First, they put me through like 2 hours of different tests. Then my therapist makes me talk non-stop for like an hour. Talking about my past really hurt me. It dug up old, buried wounds

And, at the end of it all, I felt like I was trying really hard to convince my therapist about the true me. I am so true to myself and I know how I feel. I wonder why on earth should I be trying so hard to convince someone else.

Feeling really low and depressed right now ..

Honestly, therapy isn't rainbows and unicorns. I had to go right through my past, something I'd much rather have left alone. I'm so glad I did though, as I'm now able to leave the past where it belongs - in the past. It wasn't a fun process, but it did leave me in a good place to face transition and my new life.

I haven't had a session yet (in 7 months) where I didn't cry for at least half of it.  as for the testing and talking...  your therapist is trying to find whats inside.. I didn't see if you said how long you have been going but if it's a short time, or you're new, he/she is trying to get you to actually open your mind, and heart and let out whats in there.  Picks open old would can help them heal better, or faster.. opening my molestation wounds..  hurt more than anything, but i'm better now for it.. still very difficult, but better than before she did it.  Actually sounds normal to me.