Quote from: awilliams1701 on August 29, 2014, 04:05:13 PM
I've never been ashamed to cry in private at least, but I can't in many cases. I feel it and then it gets blocked. It actually hurts worse when it gets blocked. I've heard is a possible issue with testosterone and I'm hoping that starting HRT will knock down my emotional walls at least in private. I still don't think I really want to cry in public.

Just carry tissues in your purse.

It is a girl must supply.

I've become less aggressive, and the generalized, diffuse dysphoria (which is how my gender dysphoria manifested for many years) is almost completely gone now.

I used to be angry, forceful, and violent.  I was constantly defensive and on my guard to keep from being hurt, and a lot of the time I was thinking along the lines of "better to hurt them first than let them hurt me."  It got so bad right before I transitioned that I really was afraid I might hurt someone else (I was so distraught at the time that I didn't care if I hurt myself). 

After more than a year, I feel like my emotional centers are running the right "fuel" now and it feels really good!  I'm not breaking down crying at every little thing or wigging out at small remarks people make.  I'm just me now, my true self and not the defensive, angry, violent person who was trying too hard to be a man.

From a male POV, pre HRT I would say the same. I have emotions, I cry, I like hugs etc.. The best analogy I can offer that is much the same as saying "I went into the ocean today" after you walked across the wet sand and the occasional wave tickled your toes.

With some authority I can say about the only emotions I  really felt back then were the crocodilian anger and fear. Well, TBH likely subconsciously  allowed myself to experience. Fortunately anger and fear have now switched places with all the rest.

Early on, the first few years, HRT combined with getting in touch with myself, my fears, my dreams, all my feelings, was a brew for wild emotional swings. I had for the first time ever in my life some very down and dark times. I also finally allowed myself to feel many other things and finally routinely experienced joy. Found peace within myself, with being myself.

YMMV

I'm still pretty much emotionless. Well I've been told I smile more lately but aside from that I'm still a stone statue huehue :3

I handle them just fine I just wish Birkin wouldn't keep testing them. Grrrr

I have always been an emotional person. I cry more than some girls.