Quote from: Jill F on August 31, 2014, 12:17:59 PM
Two words: morning wood.

I mean, how the hell is this even still possible?  I HAVE NO FREAKING BALLS.  I ditched them 7 weeks ago.  UGH!

Woke up to an erotic dream? ^^

Ive had no morning erections for the past 4 months ...until this morning. Odd coincidence, but I am only 4,5 months on HRT so thats no a good comparison

Quote from: Shantel on August 31, 2014, 10:24:37 AM
My SO claims that when we're out in public all the nut cases are drawn to me like flies on a turd. You may be experiencing a little of that attraction from the woman.

Maybe. She was like "I just have to know, I have to know because I want to know you as a person and this is part of you." Um, you already know me as a person, my physical configuration basically goes against everything I feel about myself so actually you'd know me LESS if I let you do that.

Mom told me what my dad said when she told him I'm transgender. Basically, he's taking it very hard and said something like this: "I always made fun of those weirdos, even beating them up, back when he was in school and now I got a daughter who happens to fall under the same category."

Ouch. Looks like the past came back to bite him in the butt.

Quote from: Marcellow on August 31, 2014, 02:39:13 PM
Mom told me what my dad said when she told him I'm transgender. Basically, he's taking it very hard and said something like this: "I always made fun of those weirdos, even beating them up, back when he was in school and now I got a daughter who happens to fall under the same category."

Ouch. Looks like the past came back to bite him in the butt.

Ouch, well, he deserves it and hopefully this is a wake up call for him...

Quote from: birkin on August 31, 2014, 02:49:35 PM
Ouch, well, he deserves it and hopefully this is a wake up call for him...

Yeah, I'm basically his punishment more or less.
We're from South America so there are cultural barriers...

I don't see it as you being his punishment, I see it as you being a reason for him to reconsider his ignorance.

Quote from: birkin on August 31, 2014, 03:13:30 PM
I don't see it as you being his punishment, I see it as you being a reason for him to reconsider his ignorance.

I agree with Caleb.

Relationships are stupid.

Quote from: birkin on August 31, 2014, 03:13:30 PM
I don't see it as you being his punishment, I see it as you being a reason for him to reconsider his ignorance.

Him and the rest of the world.

Quote from: Edge on August 31, 2014, 07:38:10 PM
I agree with Caleb.

Relationships are stupid.

It's hard thinking of yourself as anything other than the family black sheep.

Quote from: Marcellow on August 31, 2014, 09:17:38 PMIt's hard thinking of yourself as anything other than the family black sheep.

I like being the black sheep. I don't like my family much.

At least I'm not the only black sheep then,....well black KAT.

SO when she said "if I had known, what I know now when we first met, we would not have been married."   Hastily reworded as - "if I was 20 and you told me you were trans* I would not have known how to handle it and would have walked the other way".

Left me with the obvious rejoinder "as I didn't know what trans* was, much less knew that I was trans*,  I am not sure that this is a useful conversation" then "are you saying that our 30 year marriage, 2 brilliant children and, by any measure, great life is one that you would have chosen not to have, because I am MTNB?"

To which she said "no, I didn't meant that, don't be so sensitive.  You are a much nicer person on hrt than you were before, and things are good."

Which left me wondering, WTF?!!

Could she be saying she is glad she didn't know  sooner or she wouldn't have the good life the 2 of you have together?

Electrolysis appt. was for tomorrow afternoon. I could not stand it, my facial hair was 7-10 days long, so dirty, just so dirty. I could not sleep & last night at 1:30 in the morning I shaved. I could not stand it another minute much less another day or 2. Damn I hate facial hair on my face. Unhappy for sure. 

Quote from: Liam Erik on August 31, 2014, 08:08:37 PM
Thanks so much for saying this... I appreciate it.  I needed to hear from someone.  I took your advice; one of the dubious upsides of living on a farm is the abundance of things to do at any given time, so I picked the one that seemed most doable and necessary and meditative, and did it, and felt rather better.

Way to go keep up the momentum. I'm retired and could easily let myself slip into one of those funks, but I get up at sunup and get started on my list that I intentionally make up the previous evening of things I need to do and start punching them out mechanically until I get perked up internally, it's kept me younger rather than just giving up and laying around which is a sure prescription for an early demise.

Quote from: Aisla on September 01, 2014, 01:57:05 AM
SO when she said "if I had known, what I know now when we first met, we would not have been married."   Hastily reworded as - "if I was 20 and you told me you were trans* I would not have known how to handle it and would have walked the other way".

Left me with the obvious rejoinder "as I didn't know what trans* was, much less knew that I was trans*,  I am not sure that this is a useful conversation" then "are you saying that our 30 year marriage, 2 brilliant children and, by any measure, great life is one that you would have chosen not to have, because I am MTNB?"

To which she said "no, I didn't meant that, don't be so sensitive.  You are a much nicer person on hrt than you were before, and things are good."

Which left me wondering, WTF?!!

Welcome to my world girlfriend! 

Losing all faith in FFS. Supposedly I'm doing partial since I can't afford to do everything now, but... my jaw. My freaking man-jaw.

I was trying these two tops to decide which one I should keep. Not only both look terrible on me (as any piece of female clothing), but... Damned long man face. I'm fixing everything but the upper lip, jaw and chin because they were supposed to be the least important parts, but... They probably still are too important.

I'm a monster.

Quote from: Julia (Apple-Whatever) on September 01, 2014, 11:16:07 AM
Losing all faith in FFS. Supposedly I'm doing partial since I can't afford to do everything now, but... my jaw. My freaking man-jaw.

I was trying these two tops to decide which one I should keep. Not only both look terrible on me (as any piece of female clothing), but... Damned long man face. I'm fixing everything but the upper lip, jaw and chin because they were supposed to be the least important parts, but... They probably still are too important.

I'm a monster.

No you're not, stop that Julia!

religious and political turds at the end of the bridgewalk. I don't want your BS. It's horridly sad of you to turn a fun tradition into a political scheme. Please stay away from me. If you way anything negative to me, up goes the finger, and there I walk away.

Glad I avoided them, I'm afraid I'd have just broken down and cried or yelled back.
Rule #1 with me; never tell me who to vote for, what deity to believe in, or what my morals should be. I vote for who helps me the most, believe in what I want to believe in, and make my own decisions. Shouldn't you respect that everyone else has the right not to be harassed for their actions if they are in no way pertinent to you?

I'm afraid when the farmers come to town next weekend that there may be an issue like there was 2-3 weeks ago, where someone came into my store just to say things like I'm the "spawn of Satan" and I need to repent right then an there, and accept that Jesus made me a man et al. Had to get into a shouting match because he wouldn't leave after I asked nicely.
I thought a few hours later that I should have said "I must be a better woman than your mother if she taught you to treat people like that." Hindsight is 20/20, I guess.

Quote from: Lauren5 on September 01, 2014, 01:22:13 PM
religious and political turds at the end of the bridgewalk. I don't want your BS. It's horridly sad of you to turn a fun tradition into a political scheme. Please stay away from me. If you way anything negative to me, up goes the finger, and there I walk away.

Glad I avoided them, I'm afraid I'd have just broken down and cried or yelled back.
Rule #1 with me; never tell me who to vote for, what deity to believe in, or what my morals should be. I vote for who helps me the most, believe in what I want to believe in, and make my own decisions. Shouldn't you respect that everyone else has the right not to be harassed for their actions if they are in no way pertinent to you?

I'm afraid when the farmers come to town next weekend that there may be an issue like there was 2-3 weeks ago, where someone came into my store just to say things like I'm the "spawn of Satan" and I need to repent right then an there, and accept that Jesus made me a man et al. Had to get into a shouting match because he wouldn't leave after I asked nicely.
I thought a few hours later that I should have said "I must be a better woman than your mother if she taught you to treat people like that." Hindsight is 20/20, I guess.

Good response but it might result in an unfortunate situation. Better not to tempt the bigots, you never know what they will do.

Relationships make me weak and I don't like that. I'm terrified of history repeating itself. I'm unable to see any other outcome. I have no one to talk to about this. Maybe I would if I was less me, but I don't want to be any less me. I'd rather be alone. After all, not being alone is causing me problems.