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Getting closer to full time...scary!

Started by carrie359, September 02, 2014, 01:40:20 PM

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carrie359

Well 9 months ago I did not think I would go Full time for two years but looking to go full time within next couple months.
Have E3000 this Thursday and Friday full clearing then follow up in six weeks.
Next week I am having hair transplant surgery to bring my hairline down and fix the male pattern areas.. I am lucky not to have lost much but I want to be able to wear hair back without bangs.. Will take a while for that area to grow but may as well get the clock ticking now.
Then have the real hair extensions on Sept 18th which will give me hair past shoulders.
Think I will wait until second facial clearing to go full time..
I am suddenly realizing all the little things that we don't think about when full time.
Like you get pulled over by a cop and your DL says male... and you have a male name.  Or anything you do that needs Identification.  Its damn scary and I have moments when I want to put it off because of fear...but I don't like presenting male.
I remember when I first joined Susan's someone betting that I could not just exist on low dose hormones and not transition.....well whoever you were.. you were right...
After hair extensions will post before and after pics....

Carrie
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Summer

Congrats Hun I can feel your excitement from here:) I have the same little fears  with the times I need to show id's . But living as our true identity is way better. Xx
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ForeverGiselle

Exciting!!!  But I totally get that it can be scary at the same time too.  From my experience, the first few weeks and month is the hardest so stay strong and stay true to yourself.  Soon, you won't even look back :)

Good luck!
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Ellesmira the Duck

I've had those same fears. Today is my first day going full time and I was extremely nervous at first. It hasn't gone away completely. But its dulled a bit. Hopefully after a week or two it will seem totally normal.
Live a life with no regrets and be the person you know you were meant to be.

I am a weird girl, I like video games and skirts, swords and nail polish, sharks and black lace...not sure if that's normal, definitely sure that I don't care. =P
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carrie359

Thanks Girls,
I think I will totally get into it..My therapist gave me clothing tips which helps and I dress at home now in really long T's and leggings which are fun.. so I am getting used to it..Also my wife has bought me a bunch of stuff....she has been so good to me...even though we are separating..
My wife says I confuse people right now because I look neither male or female...especially confuses guys.. I get a lot of double takes. 
Right now I have grown out my beard so I am in total guy mode .. had to grow out for E3000 ... yuck.
Carrie
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