I'm a 18 yr old boy in college. I have struggled with my sexuality all my life. Idk if i am gay/bi or trans. I know many Transgender people say they knew at like age 6 or younger but I only started at 13/14ish. I started to find my attraction to guys and my more feminine side was discovered. I started to dress up in my moms clothes and still do. I've used her makeup. I'm in the closet but idk what for! I do not think i am a CD or its fetish to dress up. I feel beautiful and confident. I have a internal confidence issue as a guy. I see girls and i want to be one and hang with girls and do the things women do. I like sports, football, basketball and all but i do have a fem side and idk what to do. I'd be scared to transition due to the hate crime against transwomen its ridiculous and so sad. I just really am looking for some voices to hear and give help. Thanks ladies!

At the age of 8 and a half I saw a mtf on tv. Been fighting since then. Yup 38.5 years to fully transition (with upcoming srs), 17 year hrt/rle.

Since I was 5 years old, always wanted to be, dress and play with the girls but since I was in catholic school they always made sure that boys would play with boys things and girls would play with girl things.

It took me 30 years after that to start HRT.

But do any of you ladies think i am trans?

A qualified therapist would be better suited to help you answer that question.

Quote from: sjones111 on September 03, 2014, 09:04:44 PM
But do any of you ladies think i am trans?

Only you can answer that.

To the topic question:

I've known I wanted to be a girl since about 7 years old (when I had my own brain, and not some kids brain), but I didn't know what a trans was until later. So, in reality, August 15th, 2014.

iiMTF

Since I was 4. I found out about trans stuff when I was 10. I started HRT at 29.

Welcome to the club, I'm also 18 and in college. For a lot of us saying we "knew" at a really young age is a massive oversimplification. I for example have three brothers, and spent the majority of my high school at an All Boys school. In both these environments It was easy for me to be the most feminine and so even though my body dysphoria was enormous, the social dysphoria- the one I have felt in myself from a really young age- almost disappeared, it didn't but almost...

I probably knew at 5- when one of my dad's business friends came for dinner and kept using female pronouns and everything, it just felt so good

As soon as  got into University though the social bit hit me REALLY hard, I shut down and was absolutely miserable, one of the things I remember is just realising how much I was thinking about transitioning and coming to the realisation that if I wanted it to stop I had to give into it.

Just because you can't remember coming to the realisation at a young age, doesn't make you any less trans*

Also, Gay and Bi are different to trans. Trans people can be gay, bi, lesbian, pan, a or whatever else. trans* is an identity thing and although it is linked with sexuality, they are completely different things.

I knew about trans when I was 12, before that I did not have an explanation for the way I felt.

Only each person with a therapist help will be able to define if they are really trans.

@ Jo is amazing, its nice you has ppl already guess or tell you were trans, me im not big 5'7 125 but ppl look at me as a boys boy, except quitley i have a super girly fem side that is hidden. and yes i know the difference, i didnt mean to sound ignorant or anything sorry. more about me just being confused lol. Where do you go to school?

@ Jo is amazing: UGH YES! She will look so beautiful and natural if she starts hrt soon. SO JEALOUS. For me i am not athletic AT ALL lol. Im not good at sports except ping pong and badmiton lol. I'm a big football and basketball fan. As well no one i know, at least i think believe i am gay or a fem guy. I do find guys attractive physically... not sure emtionally. I only kissed a girl once in 4th grade! LOL. I go to college in colorado. We should talk more! Do you have an email?

I knew definitely around age 7, but in the generation I grew up in transition was not spoken at all. One of our hospitals did an SRS in 1972. They received such a public outcry they never did another one ever.

I started feeling that I want to be a female around puberty (13 years old) and I repressed it for a long time, because I thought it will never be possible for me and I was afraid that it is a kind of fetish. I never had any gender identity problems before. But I don't remember anything before 6 years age so I can't be sure. I have a very bad long-term memory. However I know that I didn't have any triggers because I was only child and had a very gender neutral childhood.

I didn't identify as trans until February of this year (age 23) but when I hit puberty around 15 or 16 (It was a late puberty) I began to feel that my life would be better if I could restart it and be born a girl. (It was just a fantasy in the back of my mind for those 8 years).
I started hormones the last week of May, and I cannot imagine going back!

Age 4-5-6 - I was confused, I didn't know if I'd grow up to be a girl or a oy

Age 8 - I was extremely jealous of girls around

Age 10 - I thought I was just a feminine boy who didn't really like male gender roles

Age 12-15 - I thought I was just a crossdresser, and I could just 'fix' myself by dressing in girls clothing, but it wasn't the case.

Age 16-20 - I realized I was more than just a crossdresser, or a feminine guy. I also started to feel weird about my body, this was also around the time I started to feel uncomfortable with mirrors.

Age 21 - I started searching the internet to find a name for what I was feeling, and if there were other people who felt like I did, to my surprise, I found so many websites and resources that helped me understand myself little by little.

Age 22 - I learnt I could be trans*, and there were means of methods used to treat trans people.

Now - I still haven't figured everything out and probably never will.

I feel like we all feel forced to conform to a narrative in which we knew from a very young age, or else we aren't really "trans enough".  I'm not saying that everyone here is just saying this because they feel forced too, but I know I tried to convince myself that I had known for a very long time.  I hadn't.  I didn't really know I was transgender until I was seventeen, and transexual until almost a year later.  I was a very fem kid, and I used to cross-dress a LOT when I was very young, but I never actually wanted to be female until I was much older.  So if it makes you feel better, I had no idea until a few years ago, when puberty really started to ravage my body...but things moved quickly from there, and I'm here!

Best of luck to you!

Quote from: androgynouspainter26 on September 04, 2014, 09:24:20 AM
I feel like we all feel forced to conform to a narrative in which we knew from a very young age, or else we aren't really "trans enough".  I'm not saying that everyone here is just saying this because they feel forced too, but I know I tried to convince myself that I had known for a very long time.  I hadn't.  I didn't really know I was transgender until I was seventeen, and transexual until almost a year later.  I was a very fem kid, and I used to cross-dress a LOT when I was very young, but I never actually wanted to be female until I was much older.  So if it makes you feel better, I had no idea until a few years ago, when puberty really started to ravage my body...but things moved quickly from there, and I'm here!

Best of luck to you!

I didn't really know I was trans until I was 20 at least, and I agree with you, it's very hard to know if you're trans or not when you're young, because life is a lot simpler then, and I didn't really feel 'male' in my body. Even today, one moment I'm convinced I'm trans, the next, I'm not sure. I've been told I may not be trans, because I realized later than some or most, but it doesn't offend me, because I never wanted to be trans.

I'm ftm though, but I guess it doesn't matter in this situation
I remember situations from back when I was 9-10-11 years old, that I didn't feel female at all. When I was 15 or 16 I watched a video about being transgender, and ever since then I've just known. I'm 19 now.

I knew I was "different" from an early age but I didn't know what the difference was until my dysphoria majorly ramped up in my early 40s. I was one of the first people to have high speed internet so I used it to search to figure out what was going on with me. Eventually I put 2 and 2 together, but I thought I was an androgyne, and then bigender. When I hit 50 my dysphoria had gotten so severe that it forced me into seeking therapy and I figured out from that that I am actually TS. I go full time in about two weeks.

Looking back at my childhood now I can clearly see the signs of being trans. I just wish I had figured it out sooner.

When I was about 7 I put on my mom's perfume
about 7-9 I put on a neighbor girls babushka under the front porch
I also played hop skotch with the girls.
Whenever I was with my mom I wanted to wear her clothes. I also envied the Catholic girls wearing their jumpers. I loved going shopping with my Mom and I would peek in the Three Sisters Store to wish I was wearing the blouses, skirts , and dresses that were on display. Also I wanted to have my hair permed in Goldblatts in Logan Square Chicago.
If it wasn't for how Christine Jorgensen in the 50's being treated very badly I would of have a SRS a that time too.
I lost the number of times on how I would lose what I have between my legs and replaced with a vagina
My best friends are GG and we talk girl talk all the time we are together.

I'm 72 now.