Quote from: wanessa.delisola on September 03, 2014, 06:08:11 AM
I'm veeery weird when i drink. Most of the time, I get more luxurious, feel more feminine and really wanna dance! Yeah, dance! Really dance, like crazy! But, damn, when sober i HATE dancing! My guess is that i hate dancing cuz i "cant" dance the way i really want to. And, when i drink, i feel like all those chains vanish, keep lost somewhere for some hours. I feel free!

But, sometimes, in somewhat rare occasions, i get very sad. And most of those time I cant tell why.

I think that alcohol works in very different ways for each person. For me, is like reveal my true self. For other, i dont know.

That is because alcohol is like I said, a social lubricant. It takes away your inhibitions and makes you a little more courageous. But a certain amount works one way and then when you reach and go over that certain amount it will go a totally different way. When it starts affecting judgment, then you have crossed that line.

I learned the hard way that leaving the problems at the end of the bottle doesn't help anyone - it ruins everything in your general vicinity. Your health, your mind, your family, your friends, your partner, the list goes on.

I started drinking when I was eighteen (the legal age here in Australia) up until then, I had been a quiet, educated child who didn't go out and cause trouble for myself or others. Oh boy, alcohol in arm with a deadly self-destructive attitude sure changed everything!

First time I drank, I drank so much I got drunk. I saw how great it was to be completely detached from your body and mind. Alcohol gave me some thrilling experiences, fooling around with strangers, running from the cops, nights of hardcore dancing with blisters in the morning and so on. It also gave me horrible experiences that still linger on my mind to this day, such as my male "friend" coercing my drunken state into sex, landing in the hospital with seizures due to mixing alcohol with anti-depressants, losing my social circle of friends from high-school due to my ridiculous drinking habits, many failed relationships and so on.

I just couldn't stay away from the seductive whispers of my dear old friend, alcohol. But as time went on, the many months I remain sober, the more I realize when I raise the glass or bottle to my lips, all those bad experiences come crushing back full-force. I had lost so much and gained only a small handful of fun experiences. Alcohol was fun for a little while, then it just stopped being entertaining when I started looking like a walking tragedy of self-loathing. 

Yesterday, I had a small amount of my favorite poison to "relax" and went dressed up in my avatar to a dance lesson with a few friends for fun. I had a good time, I didn't care about what people thought of my appearance but I realized that wasn't the alcohol talking. It was me - I had matured and gained confidence since the last time I drank. Since then, I had come to terms with my asexuality (I drank because I wanted to be "normal" aka enjoy sex like everyone else) and my gender identity (Transitioning helped ease the self-loathing and I learned to accept myself, flaws and all).

It was then that I knew alcohol had lost its power over me. Alcohol doesn't serve me any purpose anymore now that I'm happy.

Perhaps alcohol lowers testosterone a few days after ingestion and dysphoria rages on low T.

i thought of trying to drown dysphoria in alcohol, but... it kind of didn't work, and i'm observant enough that i figured it out after just a couple tries.
i drink for the taste, but i've given up on getting drunk. there's no real point in that. unless it's to have fun with good friends, that can work on good days.

how alcohol affects you will depend on your mood before you start drinking, as well as things like pms, the moon, your company, what you think is a good idea to watch on tv etc.

if you choose to drink, it would be best for your health to follow these recommendations:
http://www.patient.co.uk/health/Recommended-Safe-Limits-of-Alcohol.htm

personal experience says that my body feels very comfortable within those limits, and i usually don't even feel like drinking any more than that.

Quote from: Cin on September 03, 2014, 06:15:29 AM
When I drink, I contemplate coming out to whoever I'm drinking with, but I come back to my senses as soon as I have thoughts like that. I even made an accidental confession that completely went over my drunken friend's head. I'm glad he was pretty smashed.

I can totally relate to that.  Every time I drink a little bit more,  I wanna shout to the world that I'm not a man!  And once,  like u,  I told a drunk friend about it,  but he wasn't that drunk.  We never talked about that ever since,  but I know he remembers.

I generally regard alcohol as a dysphoric experience. Thread name is appropriate