Okay, so I recently graduated with my degree and I had my life mapped out. Well, life had other plans and I have slowly been accepting that things wont be exactly the way I expected them.
Anyway, long story short things with teaching did not pan out the way i wanted. The department of education screwed me over, did not give me my paperwork back on time and i was unable to apply for any teaching positions. And I have been struggling at my job where my gender is basically what they feel like calling me at the time. It has been terrible and has become a huge dysphoria fest any time I go in. Well, the other day I got a call from a Detention Center I had applied to and it was to come in the next day for an interview.
My name and gender have been legally changed to reflect who I am. Anyway, I went in so excited and then saw like 18 people there already. Which ended up being heartbreaking since it turned out most were veterans so I figured I had little to no chance. Anyway, when I stood in a corner of the room waiting a voice over the intercom said "Sir, please move to another spot" because of security i guess but that was awesome. And the rest of the interview went just like that. Everyone waiting with me saw me as male. And this woman actually looked at me and said that I have it so easy as a man and i dont have to deal with certain things that she goes through at interviews. On the inside i was just like if you only knew what i actually had to deal with on a daily basis. And later this really macho dude who was another vet looked at me and asked me if i had any idea what happened to some man. Turns out it was a football player and I played it off that i didnt know what had happened but it is so strange and awesome how different interactions are now. Long story short, Im already going to get my drug test and i had passed the background check which i asked if they needed my previous name and they said no! So literally no one will ever know.
It is gonna be so crazy going into a male dominated field now and be perceived as who i am. Considering the harassment and disrespect i get at my current job. I am so excited!!!! My chest is still a huge issue for me and I am hoping that by my birthday i have the money to go see Garramone. But now I dont feel helpless.