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Hugs coming to your way! I'm actually pretty much in the same position. My mother brought me to this psychiatric after I came out and he immediately started questioning me and her about my development. And it turned he was assessing me for Asperger's syndrome, which he firmly believed I have it despite being the first time I had met him. Then I was evaluated cognitively, emotionally, and tested for Aspeger's. But the diagnosis was inconclusive. I supposedely met 4 of the 6 criteria that are needed for diagnosis: lack of integration, poor coordination, difficulty in relationships and I'm not sure about the other... But I don't even agree with the one that's about social relationships. I'm not really insensitive to other people's emotions and have been told I'm quite perceptive. Also, before I changed schools I was always social and fit in quite well. Yes, it's all changed, and yes, I'm very clumsy, but I don't think I have Asperger's, or I hope not. IDK I am confused. I always doubt myself, so this isn't helping. I always think a misdiagnosis is harmful. So I'm not ready to tag myself with Asperger's, especially they can't even tell for sure and are relying on me to find out and be relieved with a self-diagnose. But it's not at all a relief. Especially cuz I am one of the hard cases.
I'm seeing this therapist now, and she's maybe trying to tell me I don't have to change sex to fit in. I think they believe Asperger's made me think I'd have to do this to fit in but I don't believe so. I don't feel obligued to anything as she tried to imply. I have body dysphoria and I think they are ignorant to what I'm going through and that's not helping. "The possibility of GID is not excluded as <my name> didn't have good relationship with the boys, didn't play football, has feminine interests"... etc. This is a quote from the official written assessment. Whatever. I think they have totally biased way of looking at GID. As if IDK I need to be feminine to have GID. Anyway, they may help in terms of social relationships, because I was really bullied and find it hard to trust now, and I so desperately crave friendship. But I believe in terms of GID I'm beyond their reach. And I refuse to tag myself with any Autism Spectrum Disorder for now, because they are specialists and couldn't tell for sure, and they seem to believe a diagnosis of this would make it easier for me. But ooops. It doesn't. It only makes me more worried.