Never since i'm in HRT. Before i often asked "why the f i am not doing it"... and now i regret not doing it earlier in my life.

Quote from: secret on September 07, 2014, 10:13:17 AM
Never since i'm in HRT. Before i often asked "why the f i am not doing it"... and now i regret not doing it earlier in my life.

I'm with you secret.  Just yesterday I was thinking that it was a bummer that I will have fewer years as a girl due to waiting so long. 

Heck, I could have kept more of my hair!

Quote from: CrysC on September 07, 2014, 12:02:02 PM
I'm with you secret.  Just yesterday I was thinking that it was a bummer that I will have fewer years as a girl due to waiting so long. 

Heck, I could have kept more of my hair!

I just miss all the pretty dresses I could of  worn 

During the first month I questioned it a few times a week.

Two months into full time, I never do.  This feels right for me.

Good luck. Persevere.  Have faith in yourself.

Hugs
Julia

Quote from: Julia-Madrid on September 07, 2014, 05:29:09 PM
During the first month I questioned it a few times a week.

Two months into full time, I never do.  This feels right for me.

Good luck. Persevere.  Have faith in yourself.

Hugs
Julia

I love the changes too much to turn back. I'm 11 months in and riding  a tidal wave of enjoyment

I am pre-HRT, and I usually think "what the f am I not doing"

Quote from: Auroramarianna on September 07, 2014, 06:04:39 PM
I am pre-HRT, and I usually think "what the f am I not doing"

its a major change your contemplating

Sometimes, you have to acknowledge the little voice inside of you, and do some serious soul searching, and if you decide not to move forward with transition, that's ok, just do what is right for you.

Quote from: Auroramarianna on September 07, 2014, 06:04:39 PM
I am pre-HRT, and I usually think "what the f am I not doing"

I alternate between this one and the one in the title of the thread.  Though the need to move forward is winning.  What was I thinking all those years?

It is scary moving forward, thinking about HRT and permanent changes.  I am sure I will ask, "what the f.. am I doing?" many more times.  But I also know that is will take a small army to stop me from moving forward at this point.

I've said it quite often, and some mornings I still do.  After a couple cups of coffee and some clear thinking, I realize that I am doing the right thing.  I think the main reason I ask myself is because I have a few things going on in my life that are causing more stress than I care to handle.  First thing some mornings these issues clutter my mind and I can't get back to sleep, hence the thought.  HRT over six months now with no intentions of quitting.

I never have.  Of course I asked myself why isn't anything happening?
which led to lots of research.  Which of course led me to find, that I have an intersex condition.
most likely"Partial Androgen insensitivy Syndrome".

Quote from: missymay on September 07, 2014, 07:02:42 PM
Sometimes, you have to acknowledge the little voice inside of you, and do some serious soul searching, and if you decide not to move forward with transition, that's ok, just do what is right for you.

You know, MissyMay, I have been talking to a few people about that little voice inside you, and surprisingly to me, some people claim not to understand what I'm going on about....   

But I listen to mine when it squeaks, screams,or gets indignant, and so far it appears to be a very happy little voice

When I first started I did do that quite a lot. But I couldn't deny that I was feeling soooo gooooood after starting e which just made me go... Eh life goes on and loving it haha

Same here Annabelle,
I was warned that if I am truly trans there could be no turning back.. for me being free and myself is so wonderful.. I have gained a lot.. but there are losses.. Its really not much of a choice.  A year ago I was giving up on life.. now I am fighting back and gonna win the battle..no doubt..
Carrie

Quote from: Annabelle on September 09, 2014, 09:25:26 AM
When I first started I did do that quite a lot. But I couldn't deny that I was feeling soooo gooooood after starting e which just made me go... Eh life goes on and loving it haha

Quote from: CrysC on September 07, 2014, 12:02:02 PM
I'm with you secret.  Just yesterday I was thinking that it was a bummer that I will have fewer years as a girl due to waiting so long. 

Heck, I could have kept more of my hair!

I'm just missing the early years of my life what i never had, then teenager years and the twens. But now i try to look forward and enjoy the years coming.

Zero.  Sometimes, at random moments, will think "I'm on hormones!" and I will get this rush of joy.  I calmed down so much once they got into my system and started working their magic.  I'm ten months in and can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!

BTW I am in my early 40s and I remember sneaking "women's vitamins" in my 20's (buying them "by mistake" or "for my sister") hoping they had estrogen in them and that's what made them women's :-)