Hello to all.
New kid on the block posting wise but I have been researching FFS for a little while now and am getting a good feel of the plusses and minuses of various surgeons for FFS procedures.
Always looking forward though and as many here likely have discovered the situations we have faced and dealt with in our lives are exacerbated by not really fitting neatly in any category. Be honest with a straight guy and it was see ya wouldn't wanna be seen with ya. Same for many if not most gay women and in some cases (redical LezFem types, yes that was derision you detect in my typing)) I was NOT a part of the womyn scene.
In a perfect world, mine sees me with a cavalier disregard to gender and could be happy with either a woman or a man as a partner but definitely find more comfort among other women. That made my Mom's eyes roll when I told her that nugget of news. But dear old Mom said it absolutely perfectly " I don't understand you but I accept you as you need to be". I cried so hard in her arms for that. For, think about it now, for someone to truly "understand" people in situations like ours they would HAVE TO BE like us. My Mom was my best friend and such a centering effect in a world that is so oddly random.
So many lovely ladies here. Do you remember when you thought you were the only person in the world with the feeling, no strike that the absolute certain knowledge that something was very wrong between the external and how we actually see our selves?
I can remember standing in the street when I was well less than 3 years old with my Mom and 3 neighbors across the street, Mrs B and her daughters S and B. I gazed in amazement at the sheer beauty of "Shiney" (she was my baby sitter and the nick name came from her braces) and thought how wonderful it was going to be growing up to be just like her B and my Mom. I can remember when I still was crawling, pretty unusual I have been told.
Funny(in a heartbreaking way) when I found out that "boys", a term used to describe those with outward physical characteristics/birth defects such as I was somehow born with, don't act like that... Being rather quick of mind I equated being liked and loved with acting in a manner contrary to how I KNEW things to be but how I was told. Certainly no one else in the world felt this way. Right?
For the last 13 years I have lived with my love G, and we are planning on getting hitched pretty soon ("about time" her kids told us). We just live our lives as they should have been from the start, albeit the FFS adjustments that are on the way shortly for myself to feel better about my self. It won't solve the worlds problems, won't make rich (certainly a good deal smaller balance in some accounts), but will finally have help to resolve the details exterior with the internal.
I put off pretty much everything when my career literally took off and a couple articles in the papers of a few cities focused on women in non traditional jobs (I am a pilot by trade for the last 20 + years).
Be safe and have a fine evening
Elaine
"Listen carefully as opportunity sometimes knocks quite softly on the door of one's consciousness"
