I ask many times, so i will ask again because, I value every little opinion especially now that I have stepped back. What is it you see about me? Like, I've been trying to get people to tell me, honestly what is it they think of me. Like am I weird or things along those lines. Having someone else tell you what they see about you can really help you as a person change, not for vanity, but for a better cause. I've been struggling not to ask, but its killing me and I want to know so I can move on with my silence and get back to my observing post. Thanks

Hi,

first to answer a ? like this i would need to see and talk with you to know who you are ,  and would you tell me about your self in a way that would show me what you are like as a person  , i dont care wether  your male ,female or other , or what you look like , how we look does not tell every thing about our selfs  its our personality our dreams what we have done and do ,

do you play music i do with our Brass bands so i join in with others and they get to know me as a person and as a side drummer  okay you get my point , 

its about showing your self to others  and ...Talking ....

i get the idear you dont wont to interact with people yet ask ?s in how they see you ,  it dont work like that you have to open up.

Stand in front of over 3 Million people and then ask those people what they think then after youv been interviewed or stood in front of many 100.s of people and talked to them about your self  , your life what you did and how you see your life .

Bottom line is  do you wont acceptance  from others   i ,v done what i,v said here ,

you see i dont need to know what others think of myself , because they accepted who i am and my background  am i different oh yes ... and does it matter ..in the begining  yes to a point and after  life is what makes your  life worth while ,   and living it to the fullest,

...noeleena...

It's pretty hard to answer something like that Brianna. Like Noeleena said, getting to sit and speak with you would help. But honestly, what does it matter what I think of you?

If I was to say one thing, you do seem to worry a lot about what others think about you and that is never healthy. It's good to know that you're liked and that you aren't doing things that people disapprove of, but yes, sometimes it can be really hard to judge.

I would say just be yourself but I'd also say that that is possibly something you haven't quite worked out for yourself either, to be honest though I didn't have much who I was until I was at least 35 or something.

You haven't been around much for t he last month or do and there have been quite a few people come and go in that time, so quite a few may not know who you are anyway. Sometimes that's the best way to be.

I see somebody struggling for understanding, as are so many here, myself included.

Really though, in my opinion the more important question is what do you see in yourself?

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on September 15, 2014, 12:58:45 AMHaving someone else tell you what they see about you can really help you as a person change, not for vanity, but for a better cause. I've been struggling not to ask, but its killing me and I want to know so I can move on with my silence and get back to my observing post. Thanks

At the heart of this I see that desire to change something in yourself, so what is it, exactly, that you are so dissatisfied with about yourself that it needs changing?

It's definitely not an easy question to answer, but the fact that the question exists means the answer is there, somewhere.

In the end, some people will like a lot about you, and some people will dislike a lot about you. Neither matters in the end, since your life is yours, and yours alone. The only one who can truly make any sort of judgement call about you is you. As long as you are happy with yourself, to hell with what other people's opinions are. They don't have the full symphony that is your soul, anyway, even if they can pick out an instrument or two that might be playing out of tune.

Only the maestro that is you can conduct your own orchestra, and that's the only opinion that matters, in the end.

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on September 15, 2014, 12:58:45 AM
I ask many times, so i will ask again because, I value every little opinion especially now that I have stepped back. What is it you see about me? Like, I've been trying to get people to tell me, honestly what is it they think of me. Like am I weird or things along those lines. Having someone else tell you what they see about you can really help you as a person change, not for vanity, but for a better cause. I've been struggling not to ask, but its killing me and I want to know so I can move on with my silence and get back to my observing post. Thanks

Brianna, noeleena is right. It is really hard to get a feeling for the whole person when all you do is read what they write. I would have to sit and talk face to face get to know your personality and attitude and about a million other things before I could even begin to give you an answer.

Ms Grace is right. Does it really matter what anyone thinks of you? Its way more important about what you think of yourself.

As for being weird? That is a relative question. Put me in the heartland in a really small town, I will be weird to those people. Put me in places in LA or any other large city and I will be more or less normal in some places. So that is pretty much relative on where you are as to how people are gonna' perceive you. I never worry about being "weird", it pretty much translates to unique. And I just really don't want to be "just like everyone else" anyway.

Jera is right too. The really important question is, "what do you see in yourself?" You can live a completely "normal" life just like everyone else and never be nothing more or less than just anyone else. The more you live life to your own terms and stop worrying about what is totally normal or not, the better life you will have. Believe me, no one on this planet is totally normal in the true meaning of the word. Everyone is a little weird, some people hide it better than others. Others refuse to acknowledge it and some don't want to hide it and embrace their own uniqueness. It is really something that you have to decide yourself as to how you want to live your life. No one else anywhere can give you the answers you want, that is in and up to you to decide.

You sound like a troubled young adult that needs to find her center. You need to find a place (in your mind) where you can at least tolerate yourself. Once you find a spot where you do tolerate yourself hopefully more then you can start to develop your true personality, you can find a path that might lead to happiness, you can show people the real you. Find what centers you what grounds you and work from there.

BTW I strongly dislike myself and I have painted my life into a corner where I can not be myself. The only thing I have going for me is hope, hope that someday I will be able to get out of my current situation and finally be free to be myself.

I don't know how valuable we can be as random internet people evaluating you as a person based on your posts. You seem kind of young and fiery, and like you're having a hard time or trying to figure out some big stuff. You don't seem weird or bad in the slightest. Your presence and contributions are good. I hope you are doing okay.

Brianna, because you have asked I will tell you.

I see a goodhearted, intelligent human being.
I see someone who was accurately diagnosed with BPD and would do well with DBT.

-Emerald