Getting up this morning and have another day to deal with holding my feelings in.

Seems like if I don't get my endo to up my AA, the only other solution is to lose weight in order to increase the effectiveness of my current dosage. Damn.

There's a bad thunder storm.  I'm terrified of thunder storms.  My mom brought me a meal and this completely ruined it. 

Plus, I didn't find any change on the ground. 

Had to get the cops to remove a guest and cut my thumb when a saucer snapped in half.Lucky it wasn't Friday 13th!

Sore, swollen knees after a week of hiking and climbing...and being 50lbs above my target weight.  Need to cut the food and increase the exercise!

life

My boss called me to work for two hours (wanted me to work much longer but I didn't pick up earlier) and I had to deal with a nasty disgusting coughing child.  Yuck!  I pray I don't get sick.

I lost my temper today, I really hate when that happens. It takes me a long time to get to that point now that I'm on HRT, but it reminds me of before hormones, where I would just get so angry I'd see red and I couldn't think straight. That's where I was driven to today because there's a problem at work and it seems I am one of the very few people who sees it. So I'm one of the very few people who will try to address it.

My kid has some physical differences that I was told would resolve with time, and they haven't. She's old enough now that she's asking questions. I told her that I knew and that her observations were accurate. I told her it isn't her fault and isn't the end of the world. I did not tell her that I've spent most of her life assuming she would eventually be mature enough to handle more surgery. Most non-emergency procedures are just not an option though. She seems to be relatively well adjusted in regards to her body and how she feels about it, but I'm concerned about what her life will be like if something happens to me, or when I get old. I'm concerned about what her life will be like in any circumstances. She's growing up and I can't control her whole world anymore. It's difficult to accept that I can't make everything okay.

Quote from: Felix on September 15, 2014, 02:38:13 AM
My kid has some physical differences that I was told would resolve with time, and they haven't. She's old enough now that she's asking questions. I told her that I knew and that her observations were accurate. I told her it isn't her fault and isn't the end of the world. I did not tell her that I've spent most of her life assuming she would eventually be mature enough to handle more surgery. Most non-emergency procedures are just not an option though. She seems to be relatively well adjusted in regards to her body and how she feels about it, but I'm concerned about what her life will be like if something happens to me, or when I get old. I'm concerned about what her life will be like in any circumstances. She's growing up and I can't control her whole world anymore. It's difficult to accept that I can't make everything okay.

One of the courtesy clerks at a local supermarket has Downs Syndrome, I've known him and joked back and forth with him for years. I had a tendency to talk down to him as if he's a kid until he called me on it one day and said "Hey, I'm a grown man don't treat me like that!" I hadn't realized that I had been doing that and was ashamed. We're good friends and I worried about what would happen when his aging mother passed away and so I enquired, he said his brother is planning to take him in when that happens, it was a relief to know. Average families don't consider these things, but it is a huge concern for the parent of a disabled child.

Quote from: birkin on September 14, 2014, 10:37:19 PM
I lost my temper today, I really hate when that happens. It takes me a long time to get to that point now that I'm on HRT, but it reminds me of before hormones, where I would just get so angry I'd see red and I couldn't think straight. That's where I was driven to today because there's a problem at work and it seems I am one of the very few people who sees it. So I'm one of the very few people who will try to address it.

Don't do yourself harm in the process of trying to straighten out the problem, you might make suggestions to those that can make the changes and then just step back and let them deal with it.

I can drink dairy after being sick for a while finally and the milk is expired, there goes eating cereal with milk.