I've been trying to see a gender therapist for THREE YEARS.
Three years, and it kept getting pushed to the side. Over the summer I finally got a NEW GP to refer me to a gender therapy centre, but they gave me loads of paperwork that I'm not mentally/emotionally fit enough to deal with. I got it filled out anyway and gave it to the GP to send back to the specialist. The place never contacted me. I tried again and apparently there was a miscommunication b/w the GP and the specialist and they've said they'd take care of it. I'm convinced they just forgot about me. When I called initially they said it would take 2-6 months to get seen for a first consultation. I can't wait that long. I just can't. There isn't anyone else I can go to and I doubt I'll even have my insurance by then.
I've just turned 20. At 17 I told myself I'd be on T by 18.
I feel absolutely sick. I'm just done with waiting. I don't think the docs will ever get their ->-bleeped-<- together and I don't have the energy to try again with a new GP and a new gender therapy centre. I have a feeling it's never going to happen. I don't have support at home, and they're not going to go out of their way to help me with this. I can't do it. I'm going to wind up killing myself, and I won't fail when I try. I can't afford to survive and become a financial burden on my family. I'm all out of fight. I can't go on.
