My disphoria levels over the last week have been really high. They almost seem to be at levels before I began my transition. I don't even remember when I felt like this the last time. I so hate this feeling of uneasiness. I just hope this passes quickly.

At the same time, I am also getting impatient with my transition timeline. I still need to wait for like a year to save enough for ffs. I guess this impatience to move forward is triggering my GID.

Sorry I just wanted to rant. Thanks for your time to go through it.

Hi! Yes, sadly the dysphoria beast raises its ugly head even when we are underway. What do you feel was the primary trigger for it? Is waiting for FFS making you feel you cannot pass or present as female because to be honest, judging by your avatar you shouldn't have much trouble in that department. Hope the beast subsides quickly.

read it.

i'm not getting anywhere at all. that's frustrating too.
but at least i'm not waiting for something i can easily get (if only i had the money).
just waiting for what i want to become available.

sigh

Quote from: Ms Grace on September 24, 2014, 04:01:28 AM
Hi! Yes, sadly the dysphoria beast raises its ugly head even when we are underway. What do you feel was the primary trigger for it? Is waiting for FFS making you feel you cannot pass or present as female because to be honest, judging by your avatar you shouldn't have much trouble in that department. Hope the beast subsides quickly.

I hope it does subside quickly as it is starting to affect my work.
I guess I just need the ffs to gain confidence that I can pass. I feel a possible trigger could be my frustration at not being one of the girls at office. I seem to get so depressed at my situation when I see other girls at office or outside. They just seem to remind me of my situation....

Maybe you're seeing something I'm not but you're pretty passable in my opinion.