YBtheOutlaw, great everything turned out to be nothing serious.  I agree you are best not to take the pill for you don't know what effects you may get from them.  Do you have a job and can make some money so you can get out on your own?  Then you would be having your mother around all the time.

well yeah i have a temporary job and do make some money, but i'm not thinking of moving out yet. you know, it's not very common here in my country that teenage kids move out to live alone unless education, job or something important like that calls for it. i'm waiting for my final exam results anyway, and if that turns out good i'll be off for uni within an year and then i'll be on my own anyway. then maybe i can actually see a therapist finally, and maybe pass as a guy at uni? i'm keeping up hopes for my exam results.

I sure hope you pass your final exam ans can go to the uni.  You could then live as you want and give help from a therapist.  I transitioned here at my uni.