I agree totally Ali, and have also wasted much of my life trying to be normal, society just relentlessly tries to drill that into our mindset.
I wish so much I could change my internal thought process faster and further into some next step to expand or transition, even if just within my own mind, but I get feeling like its too late for me, and I'm just rattling my chains up and down the halls here, not accomplishing much of anything except taking others time. Maybe that was my part in any unrest here, was just frustrating others with my slowness to learn and understand things. For that I am sorry..
I am here for any of you, even though I may not have as much as I'd like to be able to offer, never the less, I will still try.