I am taking clomid to increase my testosterone levels to normal as my levels were way to low at 84 when normal is between 300 and 1200. This pill causes depression and anxiety not to mention the fact that I do not want testosterone. That is problem number 1. Problem number 2 is when I get depressed anxious or angry I become so aroused that it feels like I have over dosed on Viagra. I hate when I get an erection as I do not like my penis and that just makes it more evident that it is there.

Can someone tell me how to stop this or at least deal with it's I am planning on HRT but not sure if I am ready to start.

May I ask hun, if you are planning to transition why do you need to get your 'T' levels up?

I have had a lot of issues and they all seem to disapate when I started T. Although T was not accepted well by my body my Endo does not want to leave them that low till I am ready to transition. So could not tolerate T I was put on Clomid to encourage my body to create it naturally. If I could function without it I would stop. I am not at a point in my life that I can transitional I am still dealing with my wife of 16 years and a few kids from my ex-wife.

I just relished how much all of that sounds like excuses so to sum it up I am SCARED to lose somethings, but I am dealing with that and I am almost where I need to be. 

I used to avoid unwanted erections by tucking, it might still stiffen but if its well restrained it'll give up and go away, at least that's how mine works.

Yes, life often gets in the way, everyone has to decide when is the right time to begin their transition, in my case I couldn't NOT start, I got to the point where I might have done something stupid if I didn't begin the process.

Alice
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Quote from: Davida on October 06, 2014, 09:07:50 AM
Problem number 2 is when I get depressed anxious or angry I become so aroused that it feels like I have over dosed on Viagra. I hate when I get an erection as I do not like my penis and that just makes it more evident that it is there.

That is one of the worst things ever for me, because I'm not someone who is even interested in getting laid. Whenever I'd snuggle with someone here'd come the rod of doom to ruin the moment. The other person would interpret that as a signal from me when it wasn't! I'm so glad flaccidity is a side effect of HRT!

Ok first off, I hope you are seeing a therapist. If not find one. Anxiety I can see but depression and anger and getting aroused. Anger and arousal is kind of worrisome. I've always had lower T levels than normal. I didn't ever take T to make them more normal but an erection when it would happen never depressed me either. So being bi it was something that I could use Now with age and my T levels naturally waning, and erection is almost impossible.

Sometimes your body knows best and sometimes doctors don't. We see all the commercials for testosterone replacement for older males. A couple of minutes later a law firm is advertising if you have suffered a heart attack or stroke due to these testosterone therapies then contact such and such firm. So maybe if I had more normal T levels I may not even be hear now. Maybe my lower T levels will let me live a longer life. Who knows?

Quote from: Alice Rogers on October 08, 2014, 03:59:10 AM
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Yes, life often gets in the way, everyone has to decide when is the right time to begin their transition, in my case I couldn't NOT start, I got to the point where I might have done something stupid if I didn't begin the process.

Yes, Life is always in the way, and I spend more time trying to make those around me happy, that I neglect myself and I am just now starting to get past that.

Thanks for making me think about what I am doing and see through the fog.

Quote from: Jess42 on October 08, 2014, 03:58:15 PM
Ok first off, I hope you are seeing a therapist. If not find one. Anxiety I can see but depression and anger and getting aroused. Anger and arousal is kind of worrisome. I've always had lower T levels than normal. I didn't ever take T to make them more normal but an erection when it would happen never depressed me either. So being bi it was something that I could use Now with age and my T levels naturally waning, and erection is almost impossible.

I do have a thrapist, and I see her weekly.I saw her yesterday and we talked about this ans she says that it could be that I am missing the intimacy of my relationship with my wife, and my body is reacting to the attention, when we argue, but the anxiety and depression she hasn't a clue.

Well if your body is producing more testosterone it is fairly natural to be more aggressive, quicker to anger and quicker to be aroused. I don't know how old you are but it is gonna' be like going through male puberty again.

Quote from: Jess42 on October 09, 2014, 07:59:32 AM
I don't know how old you are but it is gonna' be like going through male puberty again.

I am 46, and Male Puberty is not something I really want to do again. My wife  is set to have surgery on the 13th of Nov. and I have decided that when she is back on her feet and can handle the stress I am going to start HRT, probably late  Dec. or Early Jan.

Quote from: Davida on October 13, 2014, 05:11:15 AM

I am 46, and Male Puberty is not something I really want to do again. My wife  is set to have surgery on the 13th of Nov. and I have decided that when she is back on her feet and can handle the stress I am going to start HRT, probably late  Dec. or Early Jan.

OK we are the same age. Be careful with the testosterone therapy. I don't think it may affect or FTM brothers but it seems to be causing a lot of problems with cis guys in the way of heart attacks and or strokes.

Quote from: Jess42 on October 13, 2014, 10:22:46 AM
OK we are the same age. Be careful with the testosterone therapy. I don't think it may affect or FTM brothers but it seems to be causing a lot of problems with cis guys in the way of heart attacks and or strokes.

Yes I hear that, I was put on clomid as an alternative to testosterone because ov all the side effects, night sweats, hot flashes and rising hemoglobin counts. The Clomid is fertility treatment that is used to encourage the pituitary gland to communicate with the ovaries to produce more eggs and works I'm men the same way only to produce testosterone.

Are the side effects of estrogen as bad as the testosterone?  I know there are different side effects but I hope that my body doesn't have as many ,if any at all , objections to estrogen. The Clomid has also caused my natural estrogen levels to increase to a little over twice what they were 6 months ago.