just wanted to share where I'm at with you guys
a lot of things are getting better
I have a circle of supportive freinds at college , and my sister is also being very supportive
my sister sent me a binder -now I have to constantly choose between it being metaphorically hard to breathe because of my dsyphoria and it being literally hard to breathe because of the binder.....but it's better then constantly being depressed over the fact that I have boobs
the only people who know about me and still misgender me are my parents..... I'm glad I don't live with them anymore. I'm not looking forward to having to spend a whole month with them over christmas break.....
I'm still nowhere close to being able to pass as male and I probably won't until/unless I get hormones (which I'm not sure if I want or not) especially since I still like some girly clothes

Congrats!  Nice to hear things are going well for you.  I know, maybe not perfect--but I'm kind of in your situation.  Not really where I'd like to be, but life is much, much better than before.  You try to stay positive, appreciate what you have and (if you're like me) curse what you don't have and see what you can do about it.

Good luck!
Foxglove

but girly clothes look great on most guys...

glad to know you're getting somewhere.
it's not always bad to take your time diguring out stuff and trying things before making choices.

I feel you, kittylover. Everyone I know that I've come out to — family and friends — say they support me, but still have problems with pronouns. My house mate Ria used "she" when referring to me to another house mate, and he told her "it's too soon." I can only agree partially since I'm not doing anything right now to look the part, but it's still nice to hear. A few are calling me by "Arin" now, though. It's weird going by (and answering to) a new name in real life. I sometimes feel like I shouldn't be allowed to until I'm going full time.