Mythy, do what i did and put 1-800-273-8255 in your phone, either set it as a speed dial or put it as something like "1 Suicide Hotline" so it's at the top of your contact list. I did this after my lil'sis called me out of the blue to check on me since I hadn't talked to her in a few days (she knows that I attempted suicide in the past.) It reminded me that even though I was fine, I might not be at some point. It made me think about the several times I had my legs draped over the edge and was ready to lean forward into the abyss. Robin Williams was laughing and joking days before he slid over the edge.
My good friend Jack once told me:
"It doesn't matter if it's life, a bunch of rat-packing bastards at a bar, or your own headspace trying to **** you up. You keep swinging! You keep kicking! By bloody hell you never give quarter! Make 'em p*** away a decade of their life just to pry one ****ing millimeter from you..."
Life will be a pain in the ***, and people will sadly do ****y things, but never give up with out a fight! Be a stubborn thorn in their sides and thrive despite what they do or what life throws at you!
