For the first week, before they took the dressings off and the catheter out, I pretended it all didn't exist. For the next three months or so, the thing was kind of monstrous and scary. There was so much swelling that it look like a giant gaping mouth.
I'm 4 months post-op and for the past few weeks it's started looking like a proper female bottom. The tenderness has subsided (except my clitoral head) and I can feel around. It really blows my mind to know it's there.