Things have felt...off for a long time for me. When I am referred to as a man, I feel offended. Though being called a woman doesnt quite feel right. I think that I want a body that matches those feelings. This means possibly growing breasts but keeping my penis.

My only big concern would be acceptance from my family.

Is there anyone else considering a kind of "partial" or "half" transition?

Many, check out the non-binary forum.

I think you will discover a majority of MtFs never get SRS. It is not uncommon at all. 

Quote from: Heroine Of The Winds on October 19, 2014, 10:41:49 PM
Things have felt...off for a long time for me. When I am referred to as a man, I feel offended. Though being called a woman doesnt quite feel right. I think that I want a body that matches those feelings. This means possibly growing breasts but keeping my penis.

My only big concern would be acceptance from my family.

Is there anyone else considering a kind of "partial" or "half" transition?

Short answer - yes.  Most non binary and many binary folk would be considering this type of transition and usually find it highly satisfactory.

If you identify as non binary rather than as mtf then transitioning to a non binary state is a legitimate target, quite normal and highly satisfactory.  For many non binaries this is a full transition.  It sounds like you may not identify wholly as male or female so you may be non binary.  However if you identify as F then a partial transition is also a legitimate and popular choice.

There really are no hard and fast rules.  The only end point for a physical transition is that which provides greatest comfort and feels most authentic to you.  Of course, you may decide to also make minor or major changes in presentation to complement, underline or merely suggest the physical transition and your underlying identity, again this is your call.  In addition you do not need to reveal any details of the physical transition that you choose to undertake.

Take your time.  Don't overthink this.  Being non binary or binary provides you with a lot of scope.  There will be a point of equilibrium that works best for you. As I have said how you then choose to present, and what details you choose to share with your family are further decisions that you can make.   

Acceptance from family may or may not be an issue whether you are non binary with matching transition or binary with a partial transition.  Hope this helps.

Safe travels

Aisla

Quote from: Heroine Of The Winds on October 19, 2014, 10:41:49 PM
Things have felt...off for a long time for me. When I am referred to as a man, I feel offended. Though being called a woman doesnt quite feel right. I think that I want a body that matches those feelings. This means possibly growing breasts but keeping my penis.

My only big concern would be acceptance from my family.

Is there anyone else considering a kind of "partial" or "half" transition?

Also check out the non-op forum. There are many, many, many trans women who, for a whole variety of reasons, choose not to have surgery.

You cannot control whether your family accepts you. You can only choose whether to be "you". It's up to them to figure it out from there.

Quote from: Heroine Of The Winds on October 19, 2014, 10:41:49 PM
Things have felt...off for a long time for me. When I am referred to as a man, I feel offended. Though being called a woman doesnt quite feel right. I think that I want a body that matches those feelings. This means possibly growing breasts but keeping my penis.

My only big concern would be acceptance from my family.

Is there anyone else considering a kind of "partial" or "half" transition?

I often feel that way, but I think the 'not feeling quite right' comes more from not currently presenting myself accordingly. I definitely feel an androgynous-ness, but going half way wouldn't be entirely honest. I'm a dyke, essentially. Anything less than female (in presentation and identity) wouldn't be enough. It's what I originally planned on, but it just didn't feel right. There will always be a 'maleness' about me, but it really only comes through in intangible ways rather than in body language or the way I talk. For example, you don't really come across a lot of women who are into progressive rock.

Ooo lots of responses c:

Quote from: Aisla on October 20, 2014, 09:01:46 AM
Short answer - yes.  Most non binary and many binary folk would be considering this type of transition and usually find it highly satisfactory.

If you identify as non binary rather than as mtf then transitioning to a non binary state is a legitimate target, quite normal and highly satisfactory.  For many non binaries this is a full transition.  It sounds like you may not identify wholly as male or female so you may be non binary.  However if you identify as F then a partial transition is also a legitimate and popular choice.

There really are no hard and fast rules.  The only end point for a physical transition is that which provides greatest comfort and feels most authentic to you.  Of course, you may decide to also make minor or major changes in presentation to complement, underline or merely suggest the physical transition and your underlying identity, again this is your call.  In addition you do not need to reveal any details of the physical transition that you choose to undertake.

Take your time.  Don't overthink this.  Being non binary or binary provides you with a lot of scope.  There will be a point of equilibrium that works best for you. As I have said how you then choose to present, and what details you choose to share with your family are further decisions that you can make.   

Acceptance from family may or may not be an issue whether you are non binary with matching transition or binary with a partial transition.  Hope this helps.

Safe travels

Aisla

*sigh* I guess I didnt have to reveal physical changes but felt a need to explain myself I guess? I mean normally shy away from talking about those parts of me >.>

But yes, thank you for the awesome response! Its a good help and it just feels so supportive! ^^

Quote from: suzifrommd on October 20, 2014, 10:39:59 AM
Also check out the non-op forum. There are many, many, many trans women who, for a whole variety of reasons, choose not to have surgery.

You cannot control whether your family accepts you. You can only choose whether to be "you". It's up to them to figure it out from there.

Ok I understand. It would just be hard because we are so close and that would be my biggest concern.

And yes, I'll look more into the non-op catagory thanks! c:

My advice to all gender variant people, whether binary or not (and especially if you aren't certain), is to simply take baby steps into transitioning, stop when you're comfortable and take a step back if you think you've gone too far.   Some things are irreversible, so try to be absolutely certain before taking the next step. 

My next step is SRS, and I will not take it until I am 100% sure that I need it for a set amount of time before I even so much as see a surgeon for a consultation.

Jill

Great advice.  This isn't a race. It is your life and your journey. Take care

Aisla

For me, i dont really hate or love my thing below so SRS will be out for me, a lifelong of dilating seems like a chore to me. Whether or not, there will any sensation below after SRS is still a hit or miss kinda affair. Though if i can magically swap my thing below for a cis girl vagina, i would do so in a heart beat.

I will stop after FFS, BA and body contouring, to me that a full transition and thereafter i will focus on building a future and a family with my future partner.

I had already used 2 yrs to get to where i am today though its very slow and insignificant compared to many here that started off ard late 2012 and probably need another 3 yrs to achieve my transition goals by then i will be nearing my 40.   

I think that gender is fluid.  It's strange that the TG community is so against labels, yet we put so many on ourselves.  Non-binary, trans this, gender that....  And none of it is "who" we are.

The statement "I am", is a powerful one.  It creates.  It becomes a "reality".  I am something.  But WHO I am is not any label.  It's certainly not a fixed reality as it relates to gender.

I am a reflection of me.  Whatever "stage" I am.  I am a beautiful, healing, transformational, loving leader, who experiences life outside of the societal norm of gender.  I personally am hormonally female (almost 4 years hormones), and live in the middle... and may go through full transition, and I'm open.

How other's perceive me, will always be up to them, not me.  If I want to be accepted, I have to accept them, where they are.  And I only do that by accepting me, wherever I am....  and knowing WHO I am is never a label, how far I am into transition, whether my breasts are big enough, etc.

The most important part of I AM, is to be comfortable.... and happy.  No matter where you choose to be.  And, that's just one girl's opinion.   Best of luck.

I am far from "Gender Fluid", plenty of gender binary for me, and living in both worlds to some extent. You are far from alone. Living mostly in male more it is difficult for me to ALWAYS think "I am a Woman"

There are plenty of points or factors that go into totally "Changing Teams". Every choice in life involves compromises. I never liked being called a boy or a man. It sent chills right through my gut. Woman never felt right, still doesn't. Better, but not right. I chalk it up to much of my identity, my sense of self, can be said to be "Male". Guilty as charged. I find great joy in many of those "Male" traits. Being able to ALLOW myself to feel joy, joyous even, about these other significant aspects which define me has been difficult, at best.

Guilt, Shame, both still  keep me from totally embracing all the positive feelings. Still lots of tweaking is needed.

Quote from: Esther79 on October 24, 2014, 03:43:16 AM
For me, i dont really hate or love my thing below so SRS will be out for me, a lifelong of dilating seems like a chore to me. Whether or not, there will any sensation below after SRS is still a hit or miss kinda affair. Though if i can magically swap my thing below for a cis girl vagina, i would do so in a heart beat.

95%+ of people who have SRS have little to no issue with loss of sensation..

QuoteI will stop after FFS, BA and body contouring, to me that a full transition and thereafter i will focus on building a future and a family with my future partner.

These are all FAR more likely to result in a loss of sensation.. 

QuoteI had already used 2 yrs to get to where i am today though its very slow and insignificant compared to many here that started off ard late 2012 and probably need another 3 yrs to achieve my transition goals by then i will be nearing my 40.

I came out in July 2010, first saw my therapist in September 2010.. He and I parted company almost exactly 4 years later, the end of last September. Seems like way longer than that..

I think it is pretty normal ^^. You are not used to being called a girl, so it isn't weird that it feels uncomfortable. Also, it does sound like you want to be a girl. Thus, being called so, should be a compliment. Many people don't know how to react to compliments. With time the 'compliment' is normal and you will just take it .