It seems that I really cannot seem to stop buying female clothes and its getting pretty bad. In the last few weeks I think I have spent like $200 on just lingerie alone and other items to make me happy when I am dressing up and giving me options. Like today I went into town which is like 7 miles away to get a few errands done and while I was driving I passed Walmart and decided to go in and see if I could find a nightie that I would like and I couldn't find one but I found two cami tops that I really liked and then I started to walk around found three pair of panties that I was just drawn to so I bought those, its like my collection of female clothes is just getting bigger and bigger.

Last week I went and I bought a dress and a skirt and a top that looked really good on me, few days before that I bought some shapewear as well as a leotard and several pairs of panties and tights. I really need to stop before my female clothes are more than my male clothes and I need some self control because this is bad. I am thinking about picking up a second job and I feel like the money from that might end up just going towards female stuff. Like I really want to get a wig, some breast forms and some bras so I am sure money from the PT Job would go towards those and then once all that comes together and I end up dressing in public for the first time I am sure that my shopping habits will get even worse and I will buy outter outfits like dresses and skirts and blouses and such.

I am addicted to this so much.

Are you bragging or complaining?   

I'm in the same boat and I definitely have more female clothes than men's clothes now, and I LOVE it. 

Know how you feel Sandy,with me its shoes too!

Sandy, I have experienced exacting what you are currently going through.  Fortunately, at least for me, it does eventually come to a natural end or perhaps more accurately - an extended pause, before the next episode.  I find setting a dollar amount before I begin a shop-a-thon really helps.  Visiting thrift stores instead of buying new clothing helps to stretch the money.  Obviously there are some items, like the shape wear you mentioned, that aren't to be found there so budget accordingly.   For me the hard thing about it is that one purchase simply leads to the next.  A new pair of leggings requires a new top which requires different shoes and the whole outfit requires different jewelry, etc.  If you discover "the cure" please let me know.  My wallet will thank you.  All the best,  Katy

Your tone certainly suggests that you find this to be something of a conflict, so I'm assuming you might like some suggestions on how to manage things. A lot of us here have gone through similar experiences and done that if that is what you want.

The kind of "addictive" zeal for collecting feminine clothing you are experiencing is common for people who have repressed a desire for a long time in the past. I suspect having and wearing clothing you find feminine counters the male persona you've probably created for yourself. This desire is often connected with sexual desire. But it's OK and can be managed, if you want.

If you start wearing the clothes you're buying a lot of the time, I suspect your desires will settle into a more practical level. I suspect your desires to shop fluctuate back and forth now, anyway-- in conflict with your desire to oppress them. If you stop oppressing and just make a place in your life for it, things will settle down, I believe.

You do need to explore your feelings and decide what you want to do. There are a number of ways and people manage happily with all of them. Your choices look something like this: a) Closet crossdresser who collects things and dolls up regularly at home, b) Public crossdresser who is not concerned about passing, so limits times and places out, c) Passing crossdresser who likes to divide time between living in masculine and feminine personas, d) Transitional, and aim toward living full-time as a woman.

Once you decide how you want to play this your passions will become easier to deal with. It's just a matter of working out the details. Good luck with it.

EDIT: Oh, there's one other option I didn't mention. You could decide to incorporate femininity into your masculine lifestyle as an androgynous person. This option is seldom appealing to the passionate crossdressing enthusiast, though, but it's an option you can add to the others.