What was your reaction when you first realizes, saw, or felt your breast buds present?? Did you freak out? Where you happy? Worried? How big were they? Did you consider stopping hormones?

Quotedid you freak out?

A little, it kinda struck me by surprise, i mean, I'm actually growing boobs!!!!!

Quotewhere you happy/Worried?

I was ecstatic right up until the point where I first bumped them...then not so much, it hurts a lot

Quotehow big were they?

About the size of an Australian 20 cent piece...so however big that is
Now they are much, much bigger and I love them very, very much

I wasn't really freaked out, but I definitely was surprised, amazed and happy    I remember thinking "Damn Dang, this ->-bleeped-<- stuff really works!!!"

Quote from: Jo-is-amazing on October 27, 2014, 01:06:15 AM
I was ecstatic right up until the point where I first bumped them...then not so much

This sums it up for me as well! 

Pretty much the same as the above too.  Not surprised, but more of a realization that things were getting serious (in an exciting way).  It caused me to take a step back and re-reevaluate whether I was still on the right path, because it's one thing to become comfortable with being trans in your head, but a whole nother thing to start to make actual changes to your body.

That took about ten seconds.  Then I just prodded them non-stop for a few weeks when people weren't looking to make sure they still hurt when I touched them and I wasn't just dreaming.

"Awesome!!!"
Until the first time you bump into something with them.

Quote from: V M on October 27, 2014, 02:17:01 AM
I wasn't really freaked out, but I definitely was surprised, amazed and happy    I remember thinking "Damn Dang, this ->-bleeped-<- stuff really works!!!"

Same here! Mine are about 2 inches in diameter, no more bear hugs for me for a while!

I was thrilled, but shocked (it was on day 5 of HRT). Never considered quitting.

At the beginning they were maybe the size of a small marble; at the biggest, I'd say a 1" ball.

I was thinking, is that what I think it is. I knew it was going to happen but finally happening was sweet.

(:

followed by

D;

because they hurt. bad.

Elation that I'm having boobs and that things are *really* happening. Finally.  Waited 40 years, the change seems soooo fast these days!

Then, like others have stated, slamming them into something is PAINFUL.  AVOID!!

And the daily pain, which isn't fun, but is a constant reminder that my body is catching up to my brain and that I'm headed in the right direction.  Finally.

Thought about stopping hormones? No way. More like "holy sheeeeeeet. this is actually working!!!!".

Freak out? no i didnt, i was very happy when i found them which was before they became visible as i was forever checking for them lol, never considered stopping hormones although currently considering cutting my dosage back but this is due to me being stupid and self medicating before i was taken on by the nhs, im now worried i may harm my chances before i see their doctor (feb next year) so want to cut back to low dose until then

Here's the post that I wrote in my journal about a month and a half into hormones when I really started being able to call them breast buds for the first time:

"Oh, yeah, and I LOVE what I am now officially calling my boobs. Just having even that tiny bit of fatty tissue is just awesome to think about. Welcome to my body! Hope you like it here! I love you, my budding girls! "

I started hrt for a few days. Then started thinking i'm not transgender and quit. If something permanent were to happen like breast budding i would absolutely happy. BUT, the idea of beginning a permanent change freaks me out. I'm trying a partial transition where i continue to present as male, since i can never pass in an honest world, but see what hrt does for me. I feel a lot better about it now and am going to go back on hrt right away. I want boobs so freaking bad I can taste it!

Quote from: bridget on October 29, 2014, 01:06:44 PM
I started hrt for a few days. Then started thinking i'm not transgender and quit.

This is interesting.  Did HRT make you feel worse, have no effect, or did it make you feel better but you just got cold feet and quit?

"Then started thinking i'm not transgender and quit."

If through some magic act I could wake up tomorrow with the body of a biological female I would be VERY happy without question. Nearly all of the time, I want to get rid of this male body. The big big problem i have in thinking i am not transgendered is that for the hour or so after I masturbate I COMPLETELY lose all desire to transition and feel as if i could live the rest of my life in this body contented. But, then time passes and my transgender feelings return.Plus, i dont hate my penis. I really really wish it was a vagina and other lady parts, but I dont hate what i have now. It could be improved. These feelings have gone on what seems like forever now. What if i grow boobs and regret it? What if i love it so much, i get SRS then end up regretting that.

I stopped hrt because I thought I am not doing a full transition, then why do permanent changes. I am going to always live in guy mode, so if i can keep doing what i have been for so long now, why not just keep doing it? That way i dont have to bind my boobs, explain things to people, etc.... But now i am planning to start hrt again in April after i lose like 40lbs. Same cycle continues.

Quote from: bridget on October 29, 2014, 11:45:19 PM
"Then started thinking i'm not transgender and quit."

If through some magic act I could wake up tomorrow with the body of a biological female I would be VERY happy without question. Nearly all of the time, I want to get rid of this male body. The big big problem i have in thinking i am not transgendered is that for the hour or so after I masturbate I COMPLETELY lose all desire to transition and feel as if i could live the rest of my life in this body contented. But, then time passes and my transgender feelings return.Plus, i dont hate my penis. I really really wish it was a vagina and other lady parts, but I dont hate what i have now. It could be improved. These feelings have gone on what seems like forever now. What if i grow boobs and regret it? What if i love it so much, i get SRS then end up regretting that.

I stopped hrt because I thought I am not doing a full transition, then why do permanent changes. I am going to always live in guy mode, so if i can keep doing what i have been for so long now, why not just keep doing it? That way i dont have to bind my boobs, explain things to people, etc.... But now i am planning to start hrt again in April after i lose like 40lbs. Same cycle continues.

I used to lose the feelings after masturbation, but that can be attributed to endorphins making you feel good, then wearing off. I don't hate my penis, either. I used to be scared about boobs and trying to hide them. I never EVER stopped or regretted HRT, though, so that's where our stories split. It's a good idea to lose weight before starting HRT. Good luck

Excitement, elation, wonder, worry, and...oh crap, they hurt!

My twice a month massages have been...interesting. Getting the girls drilled into the massage table as my therapist does deep pressure on my back for an hour is...special.

I walked around feeling myself up and marveling at what was happening lol..... It has taken awhile to get used to seeing myself naked with boobs but they are slowly becoming just another part of my anatomy at this point.


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