I look forward to it all week! 

('course that may be because I am only two months in?)

<passes out on floor>

I do and I'm over two years in.  I always go for it first thing in the morning on shot day.

For the first a few months, the shot was totally the highlight of my week. Then it became a task.
After hysto as I no longer have the fear of getting my period and my PCP reduced my dosage to so low that I don't even think it matters if I inject or not lol, so now sometimes I even forget about it and inject a few days later. Trying to be consistent, but I just forget...

At first? No but I did it anyway hah.

Now? No longer causes phobia reactions but still not exciting....I forget sometimes lol. Still not exciting though.

Just another task at almost 3 years and counting. Another prick in the butt once a week. 

I was excited for like two shots and now I hate it. I get really anxious over it. I'm actually procrastinating it as I type right now.

Quote from: CursedFireDean on October 27, 2014, 05:18:19 AM
I was excited for like two shots and now I hate it. I get really anxious over it. I'm actually procrastinating it as I type right now.

Really?  I can't remember, are you doing sub-Q or intramuscular?

Not sure if excited would be the right word in my case. Determined, maybe. I have trouble getting up in the mornings, especially this time of year, so when shot day is coming up I get in a mindset for it. I mentally tell myself things like, "I WILL get up immediately when the alarm goes off and do my shot. I've done this every time before. I can do it." I do my shot first thing to make absolutely sure I can't forget it.

CursedFireDean, is your anxiety over the pain, or over fear of screwing up the shot somehow? I'm always a tad nervous that I'll botch it. Having a very specific routine helps me, as well as reminding myself I've done it successfully x number of times already. Another thing that helps me is accepting that I'll be anxious, but knowing that anxiety itself won't stop me from doing it anyway.

I do! My biggest problem is getting my script ordered, though. I am SUCH a procrastinator, so I usually end up waiting until the Friday before my injection (I inject Wednesdays) to order it. And I need to get my needles refilled this time, too. x.x

I was excited the last two times...until I got an inflammation in my left thigh muscle the second time around. .___.

I always get excited since I get to miss school to go to nyc for the day. But I also get excited to actually get my shot! I'll be 10x more excited when I can take everything home and do it myself because I'll be saving money.

I get excited. I feel so much better on T than without it, so I get pretty excited to do this thing that makes me happy.

I did the first 2 times, and was able to quickly do it. But after my last shot where it took nearly a half hour to do it, I dread it. It could be other things that's triggering severe anxiety in me, but I've skipped my last shot (going on 2) because of it.

Quote from: Edge on October 27, 2014, 03:52:24 PM
I get excited. I feel so much better on T than without it, so I get pretty excited to do this thing that makes me happy.

Hadn't thought of it this way. Thanks for a new perspective. I am glad I have access to treatment, how did this slip my mind when actually injecting?

Quote from: Brett on October 27, 2014, 08:22:40 AM
Really?  I can't remember, are you doing sub-Q or intramuscular?

Subq, so I shouldn't be as anxious as I am.

Quote from: blink on October 27, 2014, 12:23:39 PM
CursedFireDean, is your anxiety over the pain, or over fear of screwing up the shot somehow? I'm always a tad nervous that I'll botch it. Having a very specific routine helps me, as well as reminding myself I've done it successfully x number of times already. Another thing that helps me is accepting that I'll be anxious, but knowing that anxiety itself won't stop me from doing it anyway.

It's pain. Or rather, it's that I don't know how much pain to expect. For example I didn't even feel my second shot, but today's hurt like crazy. It stung badly afterwards and it hurt more than normal going in. I think my anxiety is because I dont know whether it'll hurt or not.

Quote from: CursedFireDean on October 27, 2014, 07:08:26 PM
Subq, so I shouldn't be as anxious as I am.
It's pain. Or rather, it's that I don't know how much pain to expect. For example I didn't even feel my second shot, but today's hurt like crazy. It stung badly afterwards and it hurt more than normal going in. I think my anxiety is because I dont know whether it'll hurt or not.

I'm sorry it is like that for you.  I guess I am lucky that it is not that stressful to me.  The most stressful part is switching the needles around because I am afraid I am going to stick myself.  The shot itself doesn't bother me.  Is yours every other week?  Mine is every week.  Maybe it is just a matter of you having more good experiences than bad.  Hopefully, the good experiences will build up and then the worry will abate over time.

I get really excited and look forward to it all day.

I guess so, I think it's bracing me for it even if it's just every three months and my fiancée does it for me. IM shots just aren't that comfortable and it takes a good while to get it done.

I've actually developed some pretty bad needle-phobia after my first few self-injections for some reason, so although I do look forward to getting my dose I also have a lot of anxiety surrounding the actual shot.

Long answer short: Used to get excited but not anymore. I hate shot day with a passion, more the pre-shot business than the shot itself.

Opening the glass ampule spikes my anxiety prior to the shot because even though I have an ampule opener, I'm still terrified of accidentally slicing open my fingers... it happened the first time and the glass sliced my finger so deeply that the image of the blood is ingrained into my mind like it happened only yesterday.

It really makes me wish testosterone came in those vials where it has a rubber top where you simply just push the needle through that and you are able to tilt the vial upside down to get the correct dose without any air bubbles. The vet clinic I worked at had those vials and I've seen transguys on Youtube have similar vials with T in it. Screw glass ampules...! It is near impossible to get the entire dose out into the syringe without getting millions of tiny air bubbles... and this is me being very careful with withdrawing the dose and making sure the tip of the needle is submerged in the liquid. I have to spend at least ten minutes gently tapping the syringe and pushing the plunger to get as many air bubbles as I can out.

Besides from that, the actual administration of the dose goes smoothly, I have gotten better over the four years, it's just the pre-shot BS that shakes my nerves. I feel better after the shot in general as the anxiety is over but I also feel I don't want to be on T anymore. I don't want to keep taking shots for the rest of my life for every three months because there's added anxiety if I accidentally miss a shot when I think I've done it already.

I want to go back to tri-weekly doses instead of tri-monthly. The tri-weekly dose comes in a pre-filled syringe and needle - it was very convenient. Unrelated but I want to go back on a low-dose T regardless as I am suffering from irritability on the tri-monthly dose but I will discuss it with my doctor, as always.