hi, im sarah, im 25 years old and i have been dressing since i was very young. my first memory of something being wrong with my gender when i was about 5 or 6, i wanted to grow my hair long like a girls and my mum wouldnt let me and i couldnt understand why, nobody seemed to mind when we played dress up with my friends and put on a play for our parents and i wore a dress, i just didnt understand why i couldnt do it all the time.
when i was about 11 or 12 i discovered my big sisters wardrobe, when everybody was out of the house i used to dress in her clothes and look at myself in the mirror and wonder why i wasnt growing boobs and hips.
I cant remember when it dawned on me that i couldnt change this, i had a Jehovah's witness upbringing and i have blocked out so many memories of my childhood its all a bit of a blur.
in the past 5 years i have been slowly coming to realize that i AM a transsexual, reading so many stories of other transsexuals has given me the confidence to be honest with myself about my feelings and thoughts.
i have a girlfriend at the moment and she was the first person i told about my dressing up and she was totally supportive of it and slowly i admitted to her my feelings about my gender, she was surprised but said she would support me in any way i needed.
my closest friends know about me but they still think im a transvestite, ive never talked to them about any of this but i know they know, if you know what i mean
anyway, i always go on a bit, ive just joined this site to meet others like me and talk to them about their experiences, i have a crazy plan to go to a haloween party dressed and come out properly and i think i need some encouragement!
