someone recently posted about gender dysphonic or just a fetish. I wanted to add a bit. I guess I am bi. The only thoughts I have of being sexual with a guy is if he treated me like a lady. I don't like a guy who's interested in me for what I have dangling there. Not sure of its me all worked up about the thought of a man and be a woman but after I orgasm I feel guilty of being with a man and my thoughts of srs and hrt all go away. People were saying it might just be the release of endorphins that make me feel this way. Anyone else have these issues when they were younger or having a hard time figuring out who they were?

Hi KG, I also got the same feelings and totally understand where you are coming from.

For me I wouldn't let myself reach orgasm as I feared the feelings you describe so just enjoyed pleasing my partner. When in private and had an orgasm (dressed) it was still similar feelings but they did subsude after 30 mins to an hour or so, so I am of the opinion of the endorphine argument.

Since being on HRT for 5 weeks however, I do still get that 'OMG what am I doing' alarmist feeling but it lasts moments and has decreased with HRT. I'm not sure if it's the acceptance of becoming who we are that helps or the HRT interaction with the enorphines (I'm no endocrinologist!) but I have noticed a marked difference.

I am yet to to try this out with my regular partner, but fingers crossed all will be well.

Hope that has been of some reassurance. Best wishes

Amy x

Orgasm?  What's this?

I too would like to partake in this "Orgasm" you speak of....