This is terrible but I want it kept somewhere

Writing my suicide note, for no one to read.
Just a collection of thoughts,

Must I go on, to be or not to be
A great question, let me follow with mine
Can you see what I see

Can you follow me into the darkness of my dreams
So it seems, zen thoughts are what I'm taught

Peace is what I sought after.
Dream a little dream, to be or not to be

I cannot follow as I can't see
I can't feel Im forever more dead

The writing is good but I hope that isn't an actual suicide note Donna. If you are feeling down again please get some emergency help. Seriously girl you have so much to live for.

You need to get yourself to a emergency hospital to get that safe place to let your feelings out.

Talk with your therapist and doctor on your feelings and maybe they can help with medication to smooth out the lows.

You need to find the help, it's not going to just come to your door step.

We are not doctors or therapist here so best we can do is tell you life is a valuable commodity and not with wasting over GD.

Hugs,
Izzy

I'm sorry, please in all love and sincerity ,  given that I've noticed that this is possibly your 4 th post like this and given that I know how you feel because truly I've been there, I wish you could get yourself into a cab or an ambulance and go to the emergency room and tell them you want help, love Stephanie

It is time for you to act on your own behalf Donna and seek help right now. There is nothing more we can do for you. We give advice and you ignore it so please get an opinion of a professional therapist or emergency room provider.

Quote from: Donna Troy on November 13, 2014, 04:04:43 PM
i put them here so if my mother ever deletes anything i'll have them somewhere to remember, i'm not trying to scare anyone....sorry for scaring anyone.

Our problem Donna is how we will we know if it ever serious? Just something to consider with our suicide rate as it is.

Donna, if you're just needing a place to write that won't be deleted by your mom, there are better options than posting in such a public forum.  I'd recommend creating a gmail account and then using Google Drive. It's like an online version of Microsoft word, and your files are stored on Google's servers.