I have so many emotion running through my head and I can't seem to tell what they are. I do know that they deal with me transitioning. All I know is that I feel more comfortable and energized when I dress as a male. I'm pretty positive I want to take T and get top surgery in the future. I'm just having problems dealing with who I am now. I see a gender therapist this Thursday and I'm so thankful because I've been feeling overwhelmed and confused for over three months.

I feel like Thursday can't come fast enough. My emotions are sky-rocketing, especially lately. Sometime, I have to attach myself to my mom's hip because I feel so lost and overwhelmed. But I know it's hard on her because she doesn't know how to help me.

My mom finally realized I was serious about transitioning. It took me crying to make her realize how much I was suffering. I'm glad she finally realized it but I just wish she could help me. Wearing men's clothes eases the pain a bit but every time I change clothes, my heart hurts because I realize I'm female. I guess this is what gender dysphoria is? I've never really understood it until now.

I just feel strange...like I'm empty but have tons of emotions in my head at the same time...I don't understand it. Has anyone ever felt this way?

I am going the opposite way, but your feelings are not abnormal in any way. I suffered like that for 40 years unaware I could have been treated. Once I found the treatment (transition) my whole entire quality of life changed. So yes, most of us had the same feelings you are having now. 

Yeah that's pretty normal. I've felt like that too. It sucks.