I don't really like "goodbye." I prefer saying "later" cause later carries with it the optimism that we will meet again some day. I'm also not going to kid myself. It's entirely possible that I'll end up coming back here with frequency because of something happening in my life. But for now, I think I'm at a point where I need to try to step away from being in transition and focus on just being the woman I've become in the world.

I don't know how long I lurked here before I finally joined the forums. I know I would come and go on IRC for years and years as my dysphoria came and faded. When I did join, I was sitting on this rocket that was going to blast me off into my womanhood that at times I wouldn't guide very well. But that seems to be the nature with transition: Doing it well is exceptionally hard. But! Well worth it and I am thankful I had y'all at Susan's to help me find my way back on course.

I got some good advice over the years. Hopefully said something useful in support too on occassion. Got frustrated by things said but forgave and was forgiven myself. I was inspired by your stories and frightened. Susans.org here was a big player in my successful transition and I am moving on as one of the many who are thankful for this site.

Tthe class I came in on with has largely moved on and a while ago at that. I think that's the good news I want to highlight to the new people coming on board now and reading this. For all the fear, for all the difficulty and strife and confusion, it is possible to plot a way through transition and have a successful life. Even if you're a late bloomer like me and get going at 34. Without a doubt this second year of getting to be Paige in my day to day life has been the best year of my life across both my lives.

I didn't want to just disappear which is why I've composed this. I wanted something to document that I'm ok, just moving on. Though I'll probably be checking the replies to this.

Thank you one and all and I have to get in here once more, I miss you Nero,

Paige (Misato)

*hugs*

I'll miss you, sis. Come back and visit every once in a while, okay?

Sometimes stepping outside of the community and just being ourselves is what we need. The community is always here when you need it. See you later.

And I miss Nero too, he was a big part of the heart of this community and things wont be the same without him.

Quote from: Pikachu on November 16, 2014, 10:26:59 PM
*hugs*

I'll miss you, sis. Come back and visit every once in a while, okay?

It's why I'm just saying later.

Quote from: AnonBear on November 16, 2014, 10:29:31 PM
Sometimes stepping outside of the community and just being ourselves is what we need. The community is always here when you need it. See you later.

And I miss Nero too, he was a big part of the heart of this community and things wont be the same without him.

Does seem that stepping outside is what I need. Last weekend I flipped out over my muscular arms in a picture only to have my cis friends say they didn't notice or they have the same problem. Really it was that reaction which made me realize, the only one carrying around awareness of my being trans is me. Moving on from here in large part, is me trying to figure out how to embrace me being just another girl the world.

Quote from: Misato on November 20, 2014, 10:51:01 PM
It's why I'm just saying later.
they didn't notice or they have the same problem.

Hairy big toes of all things. I hgave then and feel much better about them. I was exstreamly embarrased about them, I hated them, saw them as a tell. And you know what, my sister felt just as embarrased about hers, and it came as a reliefe when she noticed mine while I was changing sox one day and she said, "you gots hairy toes too?" Unfortunatelly yeah, I say, and she goes well if you think its a guys you should see mine, there much worse :p.

Safe travels Paige. I have always liked your posts and the love you have given.

Hugs

Big hug! It's Graduation Day! Best wishes, hon, and I hope you do check in and say hi once in a while.

Hugs, Devlyn