What made me happy today?

Delsorou... who somehow finds a way to make me happy every day and my Mum... which is actually kinda new for her.

So, I woke up to read an email from my Mum freaking out about how I'll never be able to cope with college and transitioning at the same time for a variety of reasons and I begin to freak out. What if she's right? I won't be able to afford surgery for years! Is it really worth it? Then I see a PM from Delsorou, who knew nothing about my Mum's email, that reminds me about why I wanted to go to college in the first place; so I can train to be a counsellor and help people... but she states it in a way that's so beautiful and inspiring that I feel super motivated and cast in an armour that protects me from the doubts my Mum threw at me. So I reply to my Mum, now more confident and sure of myself than I probably would have been, about why I'm doing what I'm doing and I get this reply:

"can I just say, I am full of admiration for your resolve and determination. I know it's not easy but you're making plans and getting on with it and I'm sure you will get to where you want to be, your strength of character and heart will carry you through, and we are right here behind you, willing you on. X"

To put this into context this is the same woman who threw me out for being trans when I was a kid so that message is kind of a big deal to me.

So yeah... that made me happy today.

Today what made me happy was a long chat with my spouse in which we decided to do my Lipo/Sculpt and FFS before our Wedding. She would rather I take more time off and be as happy as can be in my wedding dress. So now it is consult consult consult, then a ftf consult with the final choice and  then set a date. I am hoping for a either a late Feb FFS so I am healed up before our short convention vacation at the end of March (at least enough to go out), or just after that vacation so I am healed enough for May 1 and our wedding.

Kami.

I survived a talk with a brief x of 30 years ago. I'm sure happy that is resolved & done with. Life goes forward not in reverse. 

It finally happened, my dad used the correct pronoun with having to be corrected first. This brought a huge smile to my face.

I'm happy to have such a nice electro lady. Appt for Friday afternoon. She does such a great job on my face & always makes me feel great. My facial hair has greatly diminished & maybe soon all that ugly stuff will just go away. I think HRT has helped me quite a bit since all my body hair & facial hair has all slowed down dramtically, Yea!

I was able to get my todo list completely don't with a nice bit of me time to relax. It didn't end on a high note but most of it was good.

My pharmacist greeted me as "ma'am" today. I hadn't even told him what medication I was picking up yet. That's the first time that had ever happened to me. It left such a good feeling in me!

Initiating the process for HRT and therapy.

Started HRT today! Estradiol, spiro, and provera.

Crying.  A LOT.

Yep.  Crying made me happy today!  I finally came out to my mother and it went better than I thought.  Well actually, it just went.  She was fine with it and even giggled at me.  I guess when the words came out of my mouth, I yelled them!  And when she reacted by saying "So.", I thought she assumed I was kidding... so I repeated myself, to which she replied "I know."  I asked her how she knew and she told me that I came out to her just a few seconds ago and told me I needed to see a Dr about my memory... 

She is totally okay with it.  Well, I say totally, I am sure there will be some things / questions come up later, but for now, she told me she loves me, always has and always will.  Then I got mad at her... I said, "You mean I have been hiding this from you for 35 years and 100's of therapy sessions and you are not even going to throw a fit or anything?!?"  And she replied, "Nope.  That would take the fun out of your expression right now!"  God I love my mom!

*EDIT:  She told me that she didn't have any idea about my sexuality, but now that I told her, she said a lot of things make sense now and that she can believe it.

We did discuss the kids and she thinks that I should wait until I meet someone that I am serious about and not to 'flaunt' it in front of the kids unless I am willing to settle down with one guy.  She said that I didn't know what her and Dad did in the bed room and neither should my kids.

Congrats Andreja!  I started Monday on Depo-Estradiol, Spiro and Provera too.  Not feeling anything different yet other than happy, happy, happy.  I feel like the world is mine for the taking!

Rae

I bought a new coat and a pair of jeans today. And I was ma'amed by the cashier

That is until I opened my mouth my voice needs work badly

But I totally love the coat. It's a belted wool blend coat and much more beautiful than any of the men's coats I have. I feel bad though as they were all gifts.

A friend of mine after much struggle with gatekeepers finally started her hrt today. I'm very happy for her!

Ally

My updated ID with my new name and gender marker arrived in the mail! I look... okay in the photo too. This makes me even happier than I thought it would. Yay!

Beauty shop appointment for Saturday which will be so nice. My lady friend has helped me so much to improve my appearance. We will work more on removing facial hairs. My face looks so much nicer & hair growth has diminished sunstantially. I think HRT has improved my body quite a bit. My body hair & facial hair growth have really slowed down along with breast growth, nicer completion...... We use NuFree which is kinda of a warm wax for professional hair removal salons. She will remove ever single remaining hair on my face. This will be my 4th or 5th treament with Nufree. It's so easy. She also does electrolysis on the more stubborn hairs. NuFree is a nice hair removal system for any unwanted hair on the human body, just FYI GF's.   

As I so often do, reporting on yesterday.

Got a call from one of my three best friends, the only one I hadn't come out to. She's my ex boss and had left my previous employer a year ahead of me. I had been trying to reach her, 'cause I picked her up a lil' sumpin' sumpin' at Firefly Distillery on my way home. She gave me hell for not telling her I had been let go and we made a date for me to come by later yesterday. Invited Sweetie, but she was too tired.

Got there and she started hinting that someone had let the cat out of the bag, so we went to a private room to talk. I hadn't come out to her because she's religious and I wasn't sure how she'd react. Turns out one of the staff I had told had a big mouth and had outed me to her. So I explained the whole current medical belief about how we come about and she accepted me wholeheartedly. Yay!

We sampled her gift, chatted about our ex-employer and she expressed the opinion that I had been shafted, particularly because the two state agencies involved, the Office of Mental Health, and the Justice Center, had completely exonerated me. Stayed for dinner and we had a really good evening. Always a fun time with her, especially when her mother-in-law, who has dementia, asked for a mojito and I demonstrated my current craving and extreme tolerance for hot peppers. The evening was very merry! The only significant person in my life who's still in the dark is my sister, now. I think I'll tell her over the holidays if I can swing getting out to see her.

Oh, and that exoneration leaves me free to apply to agencies in my field, unless I decide that I don't want to. Maybe I'll get financial aid or student loans and finish my Masters instead. Then I could become a transition counselor.

Congrats Andreja!

For me today, having lunch with a friend

I've been so emotional lately & I have cried over a few things that have upset me. One of my very close GF's finally just said "you are like a woman on her PMS, just relax".  Then I thanked her & said I'll take that as a compliment. So funny to me. Life is great being a woman.  Have fun GF's.

I discovered the joys of yoga pants! They're so comfortable and bring out my curves!

Fully shaved my legs from top to bottom for the first time ever, it feels so great. Only disappointed I didn't do it a lot sooner.

I had such a nice visit yesterday with my electro lady friend/beauty shop. My face is so smooth & looks so nice. Also my lady friend said that my breasts are larger than some of her cis women clients & that my remaining facial hairs are less than one of her cis women clients. I've been seeing this nice lady for over a year & she has helped me so much to become more of a woman. Oh & how lucky for me, my lady friend is my same height, 5' 8", dress size 14 & wears a size 10 womens shoes. My exact dress & shoe size. She is going to give me a lot of her unwanted shoes, boots & or clothes.