I would like to say hello, my name is Dana(David)I am a 46 bisexual crossdresser from Oklahoma. A few things, i'm married with 3 kids(a son 22yrs old with a disability that leaves him with the vocabulary and emotions of a child less than half his age, 2 daughters both married, one who is 25 with a little boy, and my youngest who is 21 with a 2yr old boy and 1yr old little girl) whew...that was a mouthful, lol.
I've always known that I was not a guys guy, no far from it in fact in school I was always hanging out with the girls since I identified with the more, talking with them.
One girl who was a friend I guess sense that I had a softer side said I should try to dress as a girl, you know moms/sisters clothes but as I grew older, as usually happens society frowned upon the likes of me dressing like a girl, so I "manned up" which bw I loathe that term and started dating girls and eventually got married.
I did this thinking that those feelings, had buried themselves long ago and that I had become like every other male...but I was wrong, way wrong.
Years after I got married, an older man(I had not actually been with a man until this point)was my first time with a man.
I won't go into details much further but I kept seeing him for a couple years, I started dressing again..which he did not have a problem with at all..lol.
Years go by, I lost contact but since then i've never lost the love of the feeling of lace/satin/skirts/etc on me. I'm in no way passable as thru years go guilt i'm no Barbie but I cannot carry this guilt and i' ready to announce it but i'm scared to death of what everyone will say.
I'm sure i've left out some details, feel free to ask.