I realize... the reason why I became madly in love with him was becahse he made me felt like a female. Thus... it brought out the woman in me to the surface, I was giddy when we were one on one in our two dinners. But I lost my sanity a little bit realizing it was fifty percent fantasy. He flirted with but he has no intentions in being with me. I should had not carried those thoughts in my head but I love him... true love... since I been a emotional wreck the past two days. Literally crying on and off... because I so wanted him. But hes already in my past...  since unless he wants me he needs to come to me. I dont know if I have the heart to say hello. I want to remain professional at all times.

I didnt realize how weak I am till now.

I dont know how to undue my personality change since now shes free I literally have people treating me nicely. I didnt tell them but I change... its like every word comes from a female. And I like being treated more nicely... but Im afraid now if Im giving guys the vibe im into them. Its like Im a princess in a male body.... Ill move on.

I feel like I in some 3rd gender vortex were men enjoy my presence because Im capable of making them question their sexuality. My body my face my presence is feminine withought trying. Like I was suppose to be female. But im male.

Ummm... you ARE a princess in a male body, aren't you? xDD

This actually made me realize something. I'm actually going through something INSANELY similar & thank you for making me realize that I too only deeply like a guy because he treated me EXACTLY like a normal girl. That was all it took & now I can't seem to get over him..

Anyways, not about me lol Thanks for helping me realize that though. It means a lot. & also, Don't leave! You'll be fine. There's TONS of guys out there. Trust me, you'll be fine. You're just thinking about it too much right now. You got this girl Be happy & know it's not forever. I'm sure you'll find another guy who treats you completely like a woman.

Oh, & don't feel weird about letting your inner girl out. That IS you & IS the whole reason you're transitioning. Never feel odd being yourself. You're supposed to learn this in High School, remember?! 

Hey girl, don't let it get to you so badly. I know this is easier said than done but you will get over it.

Years ago I could even madly fall in love with someone who I have not even met real time yet. I know emotions can get too much but try to not feel too attached after just two dinners. That is not being weak, that is just learning that well, how rough it may sound, ->-bleeped-<- happens, a lot, and with time you learn to enjoy the moment and look forward to get to know someone only the more and see it as a nice experience when it doesn't continue.

So, the dinners were nice. You have seen how great it can feel to meet someone who makes you feel as for who you want to be. And you will meet someone who does not want to stop at just that in the future ^^.

He did. He would be perfect but I think he got addicted to me as well ... but we were never meant to be. He belongs to another woman (shes pretty but I see our similarities). He goes for youth and cuteness and I think he saw "her" in me.  I really see that Im a female because I only could love a real man. He was 6'5, light brown hair and blue eyes. He was charming. Im on other hand just a 5'6 man with a pretty face. Lol. You can see how easily he could see her lol because we would never have chemistry if I was tall or he was short.

But my time with always be priceless because I now know how it feels to be a girl, in love, and accepted.  Its priceless but the cost was a hangover of depression. It was like pain of Ariel seeing her man from the ocean... staring out, wishing to be part of that world.

Kirey... youre right... if I landed him being a guy... imagine if I was transition female... I could have any man.

As much as I think he could be bi.... hes straight... I was just too "female" for him. I knock off enough checkpoints for him.

Ahhhh...!!!

I realize it. The guy I am in love with is a butch lesbian. It didnt hit me till now... but thats why hes so into me because he sees me as a female in a guys body... but hes into females. So he understands me because were both trans... but hes a lesbian trans.  But im more female than he is... im the epitome of feminity... borderline Aphrodite.... so he loves girly girls. Yeah i get it.

But his fav show is Ellen Degeneres and he looks like one in one pic. Hes masculine but hes a butch hes emotional and understanding because hes a female. Lol. omg.  He looks really lesbian in others and hes into girly things because he relates.

This is crazy. Lol. But I put it all together... and it makes sense. Its logical...  so if were together we would stll be gay

Thats why hes cool.... I still will love him even if hes a female... is that weird to say. 


I know his secret... eventually he needs to live it out.

Im like mind dumbfounded right now.

He can have any female but will any female accept him? No... besides a trans one.

He will never transition to pass because hes too tall.

Quote from: Wild Flower on November 25, 2014, 06:42:00 AM
Ahhhh...!!!

I realize it. The guy I am in love with is a butch lesbian. It didnt hit me till now... but thats why hes so into me because he sees me as a female in a guys body... but hes into females. So he understands me because were both trans... but hes a lesbian trans.  But im more female than he is... im the epitome of feminity... borderline Aphrodite.... so he loves girly girls. Yeah i get it.

But his fav show is Ellen Degeneres and he looks like one in one pic. Hes masculine but hes a butch hes emotional and understanding because hes a female. Lol. omg.  He looks really lesbian in others and hes into girly things because he relates.

This is crazy. Lol. But I put it all together... and it makes sense. Its logical...  so if were together we would stll be gay

Thats why hes cool.... I still will love him even if hes a female... is that weird to say. 


I know his secret... eventually he needs to live it out.

..... wtf did I just read... xDDD