I'm always going to be dsyphoric
I'm always going to be in pain
especially if i keep refusing to want hormones
people are going to misgender me
look at the trans lady from orange is the new black she totally looks like a lady and she gets misgendered all the time on the show
those amazing moments when people see me as a guy and use the right name and pronouns only make it hurt more when people don't
maybe I'd be better off if I stopped hanging out with my queer friends and ent back n the closet.

Transition = the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.

It all takes time.

Gender therapist is a great tool that can be used to reach past all the fears.

I am post, many here are finished in there transition so nothing is out of reach.

Its your to be had, reach out and move forward.

Hugs

You're overgeneralizing by saying always, which can be problematic. There's absolutely no reason why you would always feel the way you feel right now. Feelings change, and the good in this world outweighs the bad.

Things get better. I promise.

She gets misgendered on the show? You do realize the show is fiction right?