going to school and not being outed. It's been really really hard though. But I'm not the only trans girl there and we are friends. I got to do some backing up in the Semi truck because I was shadowing an instructor and he wanted to see what I knew. Did really well too. And he's given me the nickname of "Lucky Charms". because of my Lucky hat. After class is finished though I just go back to my Dorm room and do nothing really. I miss my chats with Caleb. But, overall, I'm pretty happy.

Turkey

New clothes, hot shower with a facial scrub, horror movie, and vanilla ice cream

Prepared a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner today at my Mother-In-Laws house. Her health prevented her from cooking this year and I was so happy to be able to make Thanksgiving so special today. (And I did a great job on Thanksgiving dinner considering it wasn't my kitchen and everyone loved my cooking.) Some aunts, uncles, nephews and nieces came and it was great to see everyone. This was the first Thanksgiving as my true self and I feel thankful to experience today

My boyfriend saying that hes thankful for me on thanksgiving, made me happy today

Had a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner with my friend from Georgia. She's like a kid sister to me so it had the feeling of family. A feeling I haven't felt in a very long time. We prepared our turkey and fixings ourselves too so that made it all the more special.

Ally

This was actually yesterday, but I received a call from my Aunt wishing a happy Thanksgiving. She was told months ago about my transitioning. The last time I had talked to her, which was almost 4 months ago, I felt more comfortable using my old voice. Even though, I saw who the phone call was from, I still answered with my female voice. She had no clue as to who picked the phone up when I first spoke. It wasn't tell after she asked and I had to tell her what my name is for her to know who was on the phone. She clearly wasn't ready for me to answer the phone that way, but I can live with that. It's the fact I pulled the voice off that her resulted in her not recognizing who is on the phone that I'm happy about.
Mariah

Realization

L Katy

Thrift store shopping today, there are 3 in my area & I plan to attack all of them, watch out fellow women shoppers!

Wearing my 'girl' jeans and feeling the happiest I have in a long while. I came out to my SO at the end of October (just blurted it out while shoe shopping) and it has been a roller coaster ride since (mostly great). What is the best is that I can start to be the girl that I always knew was inside of me, at least at home, and am seeing the world through a new set of lenses. It only took 61 years! I will be taking baby steps, but all in the right direction, starting from the inside out.

I still have to go out as a guy for a mix of things including travel.  It is simply far easier until I can make a legal change. 
The thing that made me happy is that the past few times I have done this I was taken to be a woman despite best efforts. 

I ordered 4 tops and they arrived today. I tried them on and they fit (XL tall). There are my first female tops and I realized as I was trying them on I had a smile ear to ear.

Goodwill store: 2 very nice long sleeve black dresses, 2 pairs of shoes, almost new, barely scratched, 1 an open toe pump, black, fits perfect, a beautiful purple very nice loose blouse, a short fun coat, 3 cd's & a new coffee cup for $13. Yes 13$, it's embrassing so inexpensive, nice almost new clothes & shoes.

I went and had some "me" time today doing some Black Friday shopping and buying myself a new outfit and purse. Very much needed after the rough stretch I've had home with the soon-to-be ex-wife.

Keep smiling 

Went shopping today with my head held high and got me some new workout clothes.  Time to feel the burn.


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Went out with a group of old friends, something we do every year. I was feeling really miserable earlier in the day and it took me a while to realize it was about looking like a guy and still not being out to this group. With them I'm not ready yet. Wrote it all down and cried a little.

Seeing them was nice but I still had to keep my guards up so that exhausted me fast. What really made my day though was one guy commenting that I almost look like a girl. When we took a group photo one guy joked he's next to the hot blonde. Which was me...

  I got partially caught up on some assignments I was slacking on for no apparent reason. I think I have made it through the Autumnal Equinox, which is usually when I have to take care of myself emotionally because I think I am most vulnerable at times that period every year. I'm a cancer, so not sure if that has anything to do with anything. 

I met such a nice GF on Susan's Place. She was married 15 years ago to a very nice man & they have a great marriage with lots of good sex. Her man is well endowed, loves her & she can also climax some of the times during sex. We are so much alike & it's so nice to find a "real woman" to talk with about men & married life. It gives me hope with my life.

Ordered some more tops, tee's and 2 pair of jeans. Free shipping and 1/2 to 2/3 off price I need a lot of cloths

Off to Montreal in 40 minutes. I wonder if they will say anything about my passport photo and how I look now. I will be in male clothing but still I wonder.

I enjoyed the Thanksgiving season however I'm glad it's over. As always I ate a little too much. Appointment with week with my plastic surgeon to look at my body to hopefully do some liposuction around my midsection, under arms & maybe my back area. I look OK but it would sure be nice if my upper body where thinner with less fat. I'm also going to ask him if while I'm under if he can do my orchiectomy, I'm sure that will not take long since it's not a big procedure. The surgeon & all of his women staff members are so nice to me & that would great to wake up with a more shaply female body & not have to take any more spiro pills & pee so much.