I'm male/male looking. I'm a crossdresser and I'm probably a transgendered person.
I'd really like to move more towards feminity. I don't know if I'd like to be a women,
I just want to find out more about what it would be like.
In a perfect world I would change my hairstyle to more femme, painting nails and so on.
Doing things, trying stuff out, all at my own pace w/o people noticing this much.
Problem is a coworker found my online female profile in which I had some pretty raunchy
crossdressing pictures. Some of my coworkers probably know about this. Haven't had a
problem b/c of it though.
Still I feel like this makes it harder for me to come out of the closet at my own pace.
If I start painting my nails, those persons will probably notice that. Up until now, I've
just pretended that the crossdressing thing was a "phase". Something in my private life
of no significance. Basically after that I withdrew deep into guy mode/the closet.
So basically I want to start experimenting with more femme expressions, but I'm afraid
the fact that some of my colleagues know I secretly used to crossdress will make it soooo
much harder to experiment and doing this unnoticed.
Hmmm... don't know the purpose of this thread. Maybe someone has some advice
or
been though something similiar. I'd like to start over in a new place, new city, but
unfortunately I have to stay here for two more years because of unrelated reasons.
Maybe I should just keep a low profile for 2 more years? Still.... it is a shame, and I also
feel like time is valuable and 2 years is a lot if I actually WOULD like to transition and become
a women with HRT and so on.
