My estrogen's been nice and high lately. At least, more than it's ever been, I think. And I know factually that my testosterone is way down low.

So like, feeling horny happens mostly in your crotch. After recently watching a video of two people making out, I got a new feeling similar to that, but it was in my heart. I went to bed with this feeling in me. I tried to masturbate, but that wasn't it. I tried touching my nipples and my breasts, but that wasn't it, either.

I think... I think I had this feeling once, a long time ago. Ten years ago, when I was with my first girlfriend. That feeling of our first kiss, of tickling each other, and falling to the floor, kissing, and purring, and giggling.

Seeing these two people kiss and laugh didn't make me sad or jealous, like you know how that sometimes does? It was more of a "WOW!" with a nice lift in my heart. Like my heart was on fire. Not like heartburn, or a heart attack or any of that rigamaroo, but like, "Wow!"

So I sent a text message to the girl I like and asked her what she thought it might feel like if our lips were together.