Hi. Just wanted to introduce myself before I start posting everywhere asking for advice. My story is pretty simple and short. I'm 18 from the U.K growing up I've never really had motivation to do things. I left school when I was 13 due to bullying and depression. I've never quite really felt like I was living, just more as, I existed. I often to used to dream about being a girl, I've just never felt "right". I guess after a while I began to repress it, recently my girlfriend left me who I loved so much only really because it felt like she gave me a reason to live and some kind of drive. Then very recently I had a dream, one of the ones like I had when I was younger, in which I was a girl.
In it I was just doing basic things, painting my nails, trying on cute clothes, doing my hair. I woke up and instantly wanted to go back to that dream, the next day I decided to buy a couple of girls clothes. I shaved pretty much all of my body and threw them on and it felt wonderful. I wish I could say I look cute, but I'm 6"3 and I'm a pretty heavy guy who doesn't look feminine whatsoever, so I have a long way to go. But after reading some things about feminization and the fact people basically transform themselves into women, I was amazed and insanely jealous all at once.
And then it hit me, motivation. I was looking at all these extremely beautiful CD's/Transgenders and I just felt something light up within me. I don't know, maybe it's just a phase, maybe in a month I'll feel completely different. I'm pretty scared since all of this is so new but I'd like to share my experience with at least some people as I go. Perhaps it will just be a hobby, or maybe I can become the girl I'd love to be.
My first goal is to lose a bunch of weight, and at least try to look a little more appealing to myself, I never really cared about my appearance before. But now, it's just so strange and hard to explain the sudden drive. But I hope I'll be accepted here and I hope I can do this
Thanks for reading,
much love
