I dont even know if im trans(FTM). Back then i when i was younger i used to think that "One day, imma be a boy." I didnt understand anything about gender identity. But when im getting older, i start to know more and more about the stuff and knowing that i like girls. And i start to learn that two girls thats in love is what ppl call lesbian. So i thot to myself "Oh, im a lesbian." then I started to dress more like a boy cuz i think i need to be more boy-ish to date girls since boys and girls in a relationship are what sociaty called "Normal love". Also most of the lesbian couples in my country are girly girl with a boy-like girl(dresses up with boy clothes, boy hair cut, deeper voice, flat chest, pass as a boy in the public too). And thats how i am too. So i always thot im nothing more than just a lesbian. But when i date girls i want to be a actual boy that have a penis but just because i wanted to have one (and I always imagine that i do have one LOL) but i said to myself im a lesbian and it wud be really really hard for my bea to accept me as a actual real guy. She told me that she never treats as a girl at all so im a guy to her, i dont need to do all that to become a boy. But im getting confuse myself cuz i start to read about trans. i start to wonder is this me? am i trans? or am i just a boy like girl in love with a girl? but since im half way there shud i make it all the way? but what if im not trans? just feeling really lost out there. dont even know what am i saying anymore 

Hi Kris!

Good to have you here There's nothing for it, just dive right into the forums and keep reading! Only you can decide if you're trans, but we're here to answer all of your questions, help you testing your hypotheses and listen to you vent. For me, reading about others' experiences and discussing my feelings helped me figure things out. At one point I was reading a blog by a trans guy who realized around my age that he was a guy, not a lesbian. And everything he wrote could have been written by me (he and his wife write a blog called firsttimesecondtime). It was as if he had gotten into my head and wrote my story. So here I am.

Possibly, a therapist could help you to figure things out. They can't tell you who you are, but they can help you ask the right questions.

The most important rule, however, is: take your time.

Looking forward to seeing you around