I HATE being a female! I'm seriously considering going ahead and getting a hysterectomy so that I won't have periods anymore. Cuz my periods SUCK! I've been depressed a lot these past two weeks and it really sucks. I don't even know why I'm so depressed. Like, I feel like someone I know died, that's how depressed I am.

I can't stand my periods not just because they remind me that I'm not male, but also because they are the WORST periods on the planet. Heck, I have to take birth control pills in order to keep them regulated and they still are horrible.

It makes me wanna cry! I hate being female so much! Stupid female hormones and emotions! I hate being reminded I'm female still! It's so depressing!

(PS, I'm scared of death so I'm not suicidal. Also scared of pain...) But I am really really depressed.

What do you guys do when it's "that time of the month"?

I have to wear "elephant pads", so I usually have this gigantic thing in my drawers during my period. It's horrible and I can't ignore it but I do as best I can. I just tell myself that it's a nice biological reminder that I'm "parasite" free. I'm just happy that I'm not pregnant so that's how I keep positive.

If it's not too personal, what do you use? Pads, tampons, or cups?

Oh christ, I feel you. My first thread here at Susan's was about shark week stuff. For me, it wasn't the actual bleeding so much as the way my PMS and dysphoria tend to link up for a double whammy of bs. Each ''drastic'' action of my transition (joining this site, coming out, calling surgeons...) has happened in the throes of that emotional garbage.

I wish I had tips other than ''ride it out'' and ''drink beer.'' Good luck, man.

BlaineGame, I can understand your situation.  Shark week is always my worst week of the month; the other 3 weeks I do fairly well.  I get cramps about a day before the bleeding start, that day and the first  day bleeding are my worst.  By then I using only 3-4 tampons a day and only have problems when I need to change them.  When I found out about tampons in high school, life became a lot better for me. Yes, getting a hysto would be great to end this problem.

Oh god, just remembered that I'll be on soon,  I've been living in a nice blissful bubble but now that's going to come crashing down, along with dysohoria. Thank you Blaine

I hate my period with a passion, and I really barely have an excuse.  Mine are honestly not even that terrible.  But because of a variety of factors, I have to use gigantic pads on the worst days, and that means girl panties and a constant chafing reminder.  Not to mention that sometimes my breasts hurt too much to bind.   On the days I can get away with my diva cup it isn't so bad.  I can wear whatever undies I like and I only need to empty it 2-3x a day, so I can usually manage to ignore the whole thing. 

I'm one of those folks who gets horribly depressed on hormonal contraceptives.  But, when I was younger and on the pill, I'd just skip the placebo week for months at a time and have no periods at all.  That was pretty awesome.  Wish I could still get away with it.

I hear you, Blaine.

The bit about the birth control sucks too. Been there, done that. Blergh!

Quote from: Bran on December 09, 2014, 03:10:08 PM
On the days I can get away with my diva cup it isn't so bad.

I honestly love my cup. I just wish they'd make a bro cup

Quote from: Bran on December 09, 2014, 03:10:08 PM
But, when I was younger and on the pill, I'd just skip the placebo week for months at a time and have no periods at all.  That was pretty awesome.  Wish I could still get away with it.

Why did you have to stop?

Quote from: wolfduality on December 09, 2014, 03:57:15 PM
Why did you have to stop?

The depression thing.  When I was young the pill actually made the premenstrual mood swings better.  Stopped it for a couple years, and when I restarted in my 20s, it made my mood dramatically worse-- I almost ended up in the hospital.  Bad times.  Tried a few different formulations, but it seemed to be an estrogen thing.  And since, by then, I didn't need it for contraception, I figured the risk wasn't worth it.

Totally feel you, mate.  It's hell on me.  My mood drops faster than Paris Hilton's knickers when I'm manstruating.  It hurts like hell, and even if I'm using both pads and tampons at the same time, I still have to scrub out...you know.  Which is why I reserve my tighty-whiteys for that special time.  I can bleach them later if I need to [and I always do].

I did end up in hospital one time because of my hormonal surge.  April 2013, actually.  I was sent to a 'crisis stabilisation unit' way over on the other side of the state.  Needless to say, I bricked a few during that time.  I was already bricking, mind you.  Anxiety attacks all over the place, heart pounding, crying, tension, pain, oh dear Jeebers Crabst, the pain!  Like someone was making balloon animals of my reproductive plumbing.  Lortab?  Forget it.  Doesn't touch the pain.  Just makes me itch and break out in a rash.

Yep.  I'mma lookin' forward to my hysterectomy.  Whenever that happens.

I looked into using one of those cups but the idea of handling my parts down there to get it in and out was to much for me to consider trying one.  I can get tampons, the applicator kind, in and out fine and that works for me, actually they work best for as there is no pad to see or feel between my legs all the time.  I don't want to use any of the pills to stop it as there are too many side effects as you guys have pointed out.  Hysterectomy would be best and just end it all for good.

Blaine, I hate to have to ask again, but are you looking into getting on T? Honestly one of the factors that made me start thinking about it was the menstrual cycle stopping or at least decreasing. I started 5 weeks ago and got my period the week after starting, and also this week. Honestly, the first one after starting T sent me into a wave of dysphoria so bad I just got back in bed. My breast tenderness didn't stop me from binding, but it did make it hell. It was terrible for a few days and I felt like it was the hormones battling each other in my system. A month later, however, its a whole different story. I still bled for a few days, but not nearly bad enough to use a tampon. I had no cramps, and zero breast tenderness. I honestly think this may end up being my last one, and that really excites me!
(Obviously other things also made me want T. But yeah, no more periods? I'm sold.)
Hope this helps and doesn't make it worse.
-Bear