Much of what we strive for when we start our transitions it's the hope for things unknown in so many ways.

Seeing real, tangible, amazing results is cause for celebration and reflection what's going to happen next and what has already happened even in a journey that is only a couple months old.

The last few weeks I have noticed substantial breast growth, no doubt the growth has been spurred by an increase in hormone levels as per my doctor. Since I'm not ready to transition in any way now, this has been cause of concern for me, for the time being I wear smaller undershirts to help even out the look.

These changes alone have caused others closest to me, in my case, to reject me. However, I am in it for the long haul, I am all in.

I will not reject me.

This morning I decided to look in the mirror and treat myself to shaving all the pesky male chest hair away, revealing small yet beautiful little breasts that are growing. I had the hugest smile on my face. Of all the crap I've been hearing lately, to see real tangible results, well, this is beautiful!!!

I couldn't help but admire them, and marvel how tough it has been to get to this milestone. To touch something so beautiful that is growing on my own body is reminder of how much more I hope they grow, and how much more my life grow is not just for my sake but for the sake of those around me, that I can touch their hearts and go deep with them.

This journey started three and a half months ago, but really it has only just begun.

As i walk in to the store to buy my first compression shirt now, I'm excited, not to shop in the men's section lol, but to know that my days of shopping in the men's section are very limited now.

For I am blessed to have these, I am totally blessed today.

For those of you starting this journey, do not give up hope, it indeed gets better.

Not everyone of course realizes breast growth right away, however other great things do happen.

Such as getting to know new friends you've never had before transition, who accept you for who you are. Or maybe you get a chance to do your makeup skills far before someone like myself who hasn't even tried yet.

There are many milestones but you can look back on and smile to see your own personal progress even in the midst of a crap storm. That's how you know you're strong, that's how you know you're persistent, that's how you get to full transition.

Hi Michelle,

Very happy for you.  Good luck with your journey.

Take care,
Paige

It's getting even better, just wait! 

That's wonderful! Yay for you!!!

You grow girl!  Congratulations.  Almost two years in I am still completely thrilled about being being real, as opposed to the shadow self that once haunted my life.

Hugs and squeezes...

Quote from: michelle1 on December 13, 2014, 11:37:52 AM
Seeing real, tangible, amazing results is cause for celebration and reflection what's going to happen next and what has already happened even in a journey that is only a couple months old.

I feel the same way. It is these visible results that gave me hope for my future. Feminization can be compared to the opening of a flower from a bud; there is almost nothing more beautiful, and to watch it occur on myself, however slowly, is so rewarding, the positive feeling like no other.

QuoteThe last few weeks I have noticed substantial breast growth, no doubt the growth has been spurred by an increase in hormone levels as per my doctor. Since I'm not ready to transition in any way now, this has been cause of concern for me, for the time being I wear smaller undershirts to help even out the look.

I find that shirts with chest pockets are very useful for hiding breasts. I was unsure at first that I wanted breast growth, and feared that it might 'out' me, but once I started seeing it I found it very reaffirming and positive, even if it is still minimal.

QuoteHowever, I am in it for the long haul, I am all in.

I will not reject me.

Always remember that.

QuoteThis morning I decided to look in the mirror and treat myself to shaving all the pesky male chest hair away, revealing small yet beautiful little breasts that are growing. I had the hugest smile on my face. Of all the crap I've been hearing lately, to see real tangible results, well, this is beautiful!!!

I am lucky enough to have never had much chest hair, but I totally agree, that seeing real results is critically important and provides me with the will to go on, which is why I have to question doctors who provide such low doses of hormones that no feminization occurs. I had a doctor like that and he only added to my dysphoria.

QuoteTo touch something so beautiful that is growing on my own body is reminder of how much more I hope they grow, and how much more my life grow is not just for my sake but for the sake of those around me, that I can touch their hearts and go deep with them.

Yes, I love the deeper feelings, stronger emotions and greater compassion that come from this process.

QuoteFor those of you starting this journey, do not give up hope, it indeed gets better.

So true; to have spent so many years in silent suffering and then see positive changes in a couple of months made me realize just how important hormonal balance is to both body and mind.