it was only about two months ago that I was finally able to accept that I am transgender, breaking through years of deep denial.
since then, I've been researching and devouring every bit of TG info I can find online, stuff that I used to actively AVOID out of fear that it would make me realize Im trans (lol)
I've also been allowing myself to crossdress in the mirror (something I stopped doing at around age 16 out of shame, im 23 now). slowly coming to terms with all of this at my own pace.
there have been highs and lows, lots of lows lately as I feel I need to come out soon, but the thought terrifies me. I've been keeping a journal and drawing a lot, which is a nice outlet to get these feelings out of my head. its basically my therapy before I start therapy.
right now Im staying with my parents and family for the holidays until the 6th. Im hoping I can come out to them before I leave, but I highly doubt I will feel ready by then. I live in california and they live in florida, so if I dont come out while Im here then I'll probably have to do it over the phone or through email, which may be easier, but less personal. idk... I dont want to rush myself if I dont feel ready. Im just afraid that I'll never feel ready...
anyway, whatever happens, Im sure that 2015 is gonna be a huge turning point for me. glad i found this website, yall some cool chicks