Hello,
Hi. I'm not sure what to write here. I'm new here. I found your site a while back but wasn't sure about joining but have now. I couldn't sleep tonight, it's like, 4 am here. So please bear with me. Well, I'm 30 years old. It's been a rough going. I believe you all can relate.
The thing that was on my mind tonight was that my brother has sorta bombarded my life. He has controlled who I can and cannot hang out with. When I was a teenager, I had gay friends, and I loved them like my own family, but he didn't like me to hang out with them. But now he's all fine with it, now that my friends and I have lost touch. My brother and his wife actually have gay friends now. That sorta bums me out having to lose my friends. I know I wasn't under his total control, I could live my own life, but see, we went to these meetings, like an awareness in my town for people who have been bullied. I was the only one who was bisexual (and now I question that...) and of a different type gender, than my friends. My friends were all gay males.
And my brother hates it when I say this, but I'll just speak what I feel... I sorta feel I was cheated out of a gender, or sex. My body was just made... weird. I hate talking about it, I'm embarrassed of myself. I just like to consider myself a normal guy, but there's always a reminder when I go to the bathroom.
Please forgive me, I don't mean to go on like this. I hope you understand. This is a terrible introduction. My greatest apologies for this.
Thank you for listening. I appreciate you all being here for me.
